Unwanted

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Free. this is the best feeling in the whole wide world right now. .... I can understand how someone would want to lose their selves to this feeling.

A twig snapping has my beast's head snapping towards her brother wolf. I'm still amazed how we look damn near identical.  My wolf doesn't raise her lip at her brother. Thankful for small favors. The twin wolves are whining to one another. Almost like they are communicating. Who knows maybe they are. 

Mikel's  beast nips at our ear before rushing forward. Well if it's a race her want's it's a race he shall have. 

That's how we spend most of our morning. Racing and playful fighting. Seems as though my beast has missed her brother as much as I have missed mine. 

We trot back toward our uncle's home. Neither of the wolves seem ready to say their goodbyes to one another. 

Mikel shifts as soon as the house comes into view and that has my beasts hackles raised. Mikel is quick to raise both his hands in a non-treating manor, but the beats isn't having it. Her spine is rigid, upper lip is raised. Teeth exposed . She is not happy with her brother's skin. 

Her bark is load. Echoing off the trees them selves. I'm sure it has alerted both Uncles that there is a potential deadly situation on their lands. 

" Kiki get control of your wolf."  Mikel's voice is hard but the quiver in his voice is heard by our ears. 

"I can't! Mikel you need to run" Thankful for our connection at the moment. He needs to understand that all I see through our eyes right now is red. The beast is lost within  the rage she holds for this male. 

" If I run she will chase. You hav," 

Whatever Mikel was going to say is cut off by my beast charging forward. Mikel barley able to turn his body in time making the beat latch on to his shoulder instead of his throat. She shakes her head violently back and forth. Mikel's blood is gushing down our throat making me gag.

She is going to kill him. I can feel it in my bones that she will not stop until Mikel's heart does.

" Mikel."

"Kierra stop!"

I register both uncles voices, however they do little to distract my beast from what she believes will right a wrong that was done to us. 

If she kill's him, I will never shift back. She can run wild get herself killed for all I care! 

"STOP" The word  is said hard with a lot of authority inside my head , and immediately  my beast stops. Dropping Mikel in a pool of his own blood. 

Looking at my brother straining my ears to hear his very weak heart beat.  Knowing I am responsible for this makes me consider never shifting back. Just allow my beast to have her turn at this life.

"SHIFT NOW!" The same voice that has been with me since the car accident has skin replacing fur.  My naked body rushing over to my brother's.

"Mikel I'm so sorry. I just couldn't stop her."  There is no answer from him. His eye's are closed. His blood is still flowing as if it were a waterfall. 

" Kiki back away, we have to get him to our pack doctor."  It sounded like Dylan that spoke but I am unable to move. My body is rooted in it's spot and eyes locked on Mikel's blood. 

" Dylan she's in shock, take Mikel to the doc's I'll stay here with Kiki." I'm sure that was Levi that spoke. Not that I care.

" Are you okay?" I want to say no, but I can't find my voice. However it doesn't matter if I'm okay or not. What matters is will Mikel be okay. I'm no doctor and while yes he has advance healing that was a lot of blood he lost and continues to lose each second.

" Kiki what happen sweetheart? Why did you attack Mikel like that?"

" I didn't. It was the wolf! One minutes our beast were running and playing then as soon as Mikel shifted all I seen was red. She wouldn't stop. She blocked my pleas for her not to hurt him. is he going to be okay Uncle Levi?" 

" We have a few amazing Docs here Kiki, I'm sure he will be just fine. Pride might be bruised but fine nonetheless.However it's you I'm worried about."

"Me why? I'm fine he didn't even fight back" I stand facing this Alpha. 

Worried about me when his nephew is losing blood by the gallons. 

" Your wolf should never have the power to block you out. Tell me, is this why you wanted your wolf back so bad so you  could go rouge? Run off into the wild rather then face your issues. Let me tell you this girl if you have that thought in your head get it the fuck out right now! I will not let you be selfish. You are a Gemini and there is no way in hell you are allowed to take the easy route out. 

Your father and brother just got you back, you are not allowed to leave them again because shit got real. You think your the only one that has had a rough go at life? No you're not. So lace up ya boots hold ya chin high and face shit, because I'm telling you now I will hunt you to the ends of the earth before I allow you to turn tail, ya hear me child?" 

I can't help but to hang my head. That's exactly what I wanted . I wanted her back for that reason.  I had a whole  plan set up in my head. I was going to fix things with Mikel, make sure Blackfoot knew just how much I love and don't blame him anymore for not being around when I was growing up. Then wait it out to make sure Alex was at a place he was happy with, then I was going to go on my way. Completely give over this life to the beast. 

" You want to cry, you cry. I'm telling you what I wish I had the chance to tell your momma. Crying is only weak if you don't try to keep moving forward. Take it day by day, show them tears, but never stop trying! You are only weak if you give up."

Uncle Dylan comes calmly walking up. Still covered in Mikel's blood. 

" He's stable. He'll be knocked out for a few days but will make a full recovery."

I"m not the only one that lets out a relieved sigh. Uncle Levi is right there with me. Maybe he was more worried out Mikel's outcome  then he was letting on. 

" Kierra get dressed and before you rush to Mikel. I'll allow you the honor of calling your father to explain why one of his pups is in the medical ward." Both the Uncles laugh at what will most likely me my death by verbal lashing from Blackfoot. 

"Gee thanks. I really appreciate  it." I turn but before I take a step I whip back around to face my mother's brother's.  

" Before I do that I need to know something."

"What is it?"

"Who's voice is inside my head?"