I'm Not A Girl, I Swear [Discontinued]

XLVIII

Sebastian was shocked silent when he heard what had happened.

"Are you going to break up with me?" Hunter asked softly.

He shook his head quickly. "No, no, of course not. I just... I'm still here, Hunter. Why didn't you tell me you were going to hurt yourself?"

"I didn't want to lose you."

Sebastian looked confused. "But you... You said you didn't want to lose me when we almost broke up, that it was pointless without me, but I'm still here-"

"Goddamn it, stop questioning me!" Hunter yelled, burying his face in his hands.

"I'm not trying to question you, I'm trying to understand," Sebastian said quickly, moving to his side and trying to soothe him.

Hunter shoved him off. "No, no you aren't, you're always questioning me! 'Hey Hunter, why don't you act depressed?' 'Hey Hunter, why don't you tell me stuff?' 'Hey Hunter, why isn't anything you talk about consistent, how come you-'"

"I never said that!" Sebastian cut him off, tears streaming down his face. "I don't- I don't get it, why are you yelling at me? What did I do?"

"What did you do? What did you do?! You really don't know?"

"I doubt you know either!" Sebastian shouted. Hunter went quiet. "You're always yelling at me. Hell, when I tried to ask you how you were feeling, it took me straight-up telling you that you said you wanted to kill yourself before you caught on. I yelled at him, I defended you, but Blaine was right, wasn't he?"

"What the hell are you talking about?"

"You never wanted to kill yourself. You just manipulated me into not breaking up with you."

"You really wanna test that theory?" he asked. But Sebastian could see it in his eyes. He was right.

"Yeah. We're over, and we should have been a long time ago."