Never Be Enough

My Personal Nightmare

I walk into the dark apartment and then someone's hand covers my mouth.

"Take her to the car"

That voice sounds oddly familiar. Jessica?

I wake up tied to a chair in a building that looks like an old factory, and I'm still in my dress. I swear I thought I heard Jessica. Someone walks in.

"Oh Bella, Bella, Bella."

"What do you want dad, and why am I tied to a chair."

"That's because you can't be trusted, you betrayed the family."

"What family?"

"Your family. You joined another gang instead of your own. You left us."

"Remember who left first cause it sure as hell wasn't me."

"Watch what you say young lady, it could get you killed. Cameron.. have your way at her."

"Yessir."

"Wait, Cameron? You're involved in this too?"

"Yeah, why do you think I was your roommate? For fun?"

"Kinda, yeah."

"Well maybe this will knock some sense into you. Everything Sean told you was lies, all of it."

With that I get kicked, slapped, punched, water boarded, and all of the above.

It's been days and I haven't had food or water. I imagine that I look gross and I feel it too.

I wonder if anyone knows that I'm gone, probably not. I'm left all alone most days, leaving me with my imagination. I think I'm hearing Sean's voice, maybe I've gone fully insane.

"Bella, we're gonna get you out of here."

I don't care to respond, I know he's not here, it's all in my imagination. I get picked up and carried outside of the building hearing gunshots behind me.

I wake up in a hospital with Sean next to me, maybe it was real.

"Sean?"

Sean looks up and calls a doctor.

"Bella! You're okay! I was so worried that you wouldn't make it."

"How long was I gone for?"

"A week. I'm so sorry that we couldn't get to you earlier."

"It's fine, can I have a sheet of paper."

I start drawing the tattoo that I saw on Cameron and I notice that Jessica had the same exact one.

"Sean, what does this tattoo mean? Cameron and Jessica both have it and so does dad."

"Bella that's the gang tattoo."

"So you're telling me that Jessica is in with the gang too! Is Nick?"

"No, Nick's with me. But he doesn't know about Jessica, it would hurt him even though he doesn't even really love her."

"Um okay."

"Jenna got all that stuff out of the apartment and you're moving back in with us. I don't care, but I want you protected."

"Sean, I want to join the gang."

"No way am I going to let that happen."

"Why not, I have a medical degree, I can patch up wounds and I would still be protected."

"One condition..."

"Okay."

"Matthew and Nick watch over you. I don't care what happened between you and Nick, but you will be protected by him, the guys there like girls like you. I won't let them have my sister."

"Fine. Fine."

The doctor comes in and looks over everything and discharges me. It's late at night and I'm exhausted. Sean drives me home and helps me into bed, I'm still a little weak from malnourishment.   I fall asleep and almost immediately I'm pulled into a nightmare, I'm being taunted, starved and beaten again and I cry out for help but this time no one comes. I feel the bed dip beside me and someone lay down, I feel a protective arm wrap around me and relax.

I'm okay.

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