greed•y - billie eilish

ten

finley

A blissful soft angelic voice whispered through my ear buds as I curled into the corner of my towns small public library the bean bag I slumped in forming to my body comfortably, my eyes barley skimmed over the magazine I held in my hands tightly mostly just focusing on the newly introduced artist filling my ears.

My brother was happy I was finally leaving the house I decided to branch out since the coffee shop incident and I guess you could say it's helped my moods somewhat since that adventure.

I couldn't help but get my mind of Billie since that day I guess I missed a lot being cooped up in my room for so long because it seemed everyone knew who the famous Billie Eilish was, yet I didn't somehow. I couldn't understand how, her face seemed to be everywhere I looked.

Sadly I hadn't heard from the girl since that night before falling asleep yet I couldn't get her off my mind, I wasn't ballsy enough to text her mostly because she intimidates the hell out of me and secondly because I was too scared to reach out to possibly make a friend in the first place.

"Excuse me.." "Ma'am, excuse me." A voice broke me out of my thoughts quickly jumping once looking up at the woman standing in front of the bean bag her hands resting at her hips "S-Sorry I didn't hear you." I stuttered my cheeks burning in embarrassment hurrying to stand up from my position feeling slightly lightheaded from standing so fast "Library is closing darlin." She told me my eyebrows furrowing in confusion quickly checking the time.

The woman was right it had already reached 6:00 pm, the time seemed to slip away from me while I was caught up in my own thoughts "Y-Yes ma'am I'm sorry." I nodded my shaky hands grabbing at my things in a hurry. "it's alright honey." She smiled sweetly the blush on my cheeks only growing deeper "Have a nice night now." She waved following me to the door to lock it behind me, I gave her a small smile raising my hand slightly to wave noticing how her eyes were drawn to the ring resting on my finger the one Billie let me keep after "misplacing" it in my car.

She eyed the silver as if she was going to say something but keeping her mouth shut as I walked out of the small library giving me a polite smile and a nod before I walking out into the empty parking lot.

The sun began to set creating a glow to my surroundings, it was beautiful despite the dull town it shined on it was my favorite time of the day I always loved the way the suns glow before setting into night.

My phone buzzing in my hand broke my attention away from the street expecting my brothers number across my screen instead surprising me once I read over Billie's contact my stomach instantly flipping with anxiousness.

Hey, are you free to talk?

What could she possibly need to talk to me for? My anxiety was sky rocketing through the room at the text quickly rushing to text back but regretting it after reading nearly in the next minute, it made me seem desperate as if I had been waiting for her to text me.

Can I call you?

My heart rate accelerated by the second text feeling tingles across my cheeks and nearly choking on my own breath as the call came through her name boldly flashing on the phone waiting for me to swipe to answer.

"Hello?" I breathed my voice coming across soft and quiet "Finley?" The familiar voice rang in my ears letting my stomach twist in knots of anticipation of what I'd say next.

"Hi." I squeaked cursing myself in my head for being so awkward, god couldn't I just talk to the girl.

My cheeks turned beat red as she laughed softly the background noise over the call completely quiet all I could hear was her voice.

"How are you beautiful?" She questioned creating a slight smile to my lips.

"I'm good.. I guess, how are you?"

I furrowed my eyebrows at the soft sigh in response hearing a squeak as if she was going to say something but decided not to.

"I um.. I'm just really tired." She mumbled followed by another sigh "You don't mind me talking to you do you?" "I just I don't have many people to actually talk to ya know?" "A-And I always have so much bullshit on my mind I just wish I could vent to someone." She rambled, I could hear the slight nervous twinge in her voice.

"Yeah, yeah I-I don't mind." I breathed trying to sound as casually as I could even though I was literally screaming in my head.

"What's wrong?" I asked biting down on my lip my eyes focused down at my shoes that scuffed across the broken pavement. My questioned was followed by another sigh and more deafening silence that worried me.

Her breathing was slightly shaky as the silence went on causing my stomach to turn "Billie?" I whispered softly barley catching the whimper on the other line.

"Ugh dude I'm so sorry, I shouldn't of called you-" She groaned her voice sounding shakier than before proving that my suspicions of her crying was true.

"Hey, no what's the matter?" I asked taking a seat down on the bench outside the library.

I listened to her sigh taking in a deep breath before exhaling to calm her breathing "I'm just so tired.. I-I'm just exhausted and just really feel like shit a-and ya know I'm not trying to be a fucking dick I just I love this, I love this job I just want to breath ya know?" "I want to go home I miss my bed and my dog and my same old janky ass town ughh I'm such a fucking baby." She explained growing frustrated by her own words and thoughts out of guilt.

I tried to understand where she was coming from, I couldn't imagine living a life like hers I couldn't imagine carrying that guilt of wanting normalcy either but I understood the exhausted of battling emotions in your head you couldn't control, it fucking sucks.

"You're not a baby don't feel guilty either, you're human just like everyone else on this shitty planet it's human to feel that way I can't imagine what you're feeling but I do know what it's like to feel so alone and guilty over shit you can't control.."

"But take a deep breath I know you feel like shit right now so rest, you need the rest I know you do just by seeing what you go through when I met you so break away from everything and just sleep I bet you'll feel better after rest." I smiled hoping my little speech would lighten her mood a bit, I could feel my heart rate increasing listening to her soft sniffles.

"You're so fucking sweet, Finley." She whimpered followed by another sniff and a groan "God I hate fucking crying." She laughed trying to lighten the mood making me chuckle in response "I hope my mediocre speech made you feel some what better.." I laughed at myself as I nervously looked down at my shoes that brushed away the crumbled asphalt under them.

"Shut up it wasn't mediocre, you made me feel better." She chuckled making me smile.

"Well I'm glad." I beamed the smile never seeming to wipe from my face over talking to her, my eyebrows furrowed at sudden sounds in the background of the phone call picking up on her talking to someone quietly "Shit.." "Hey listen Finley I've got to go but can I call you later tonight?" She asked rushing her words quickly most likely to get off the phone as fast as she could "Oh uh yeah sure." I nodded biting down on the inside of my cheek.

She let out a breath into the phone I could hear her chains clicking together the satisfying sound filling my ears before another voice distantly spoke around her "You're the best angel, I'll call you tonight!" "Don't forget about me!" She chuckled teasingly earning a giggle from me in response "I won't forget, bye Billie."

"Bye."

~C ♡