greed•y - billie eilish

twenty five

finley

"You're taking me to Disney land im so fucking excited!" I squealed, my heart was racing a mile a minute over the excitement filling my chest Billie only laughed her hand resting at my leg as we both sat beside each other in the comfy suv, she had decided it was best to have security this time anywhere in the public eye by herself could he trouble and Disneyland was at the top of the list for full security.

"You're riding every ride with me Finnie you can't be a pussy." She told me pointing her finger in my face with a serious look, I narrowed my eyes almost in a glare even though I was on the low scared to ride any ride I had no control over.

I guess you could say we couldn't get the full experience being we couldn't actually walk around by ourselves but that didn't mean it was any less fun, Billies hand securely held mine, I was nervous for anyone to see us but she didn't seem worried when the many people walking around took notice of who she was.

My eyes grew the size of craters looking up at the tall castles and many amusement rides, my excitement grew more and more as I felt Billies hand give mine a squeeze.

Everything seemed to look so beautiful and magical here.

"First is the roller coaster." Billie stated, there was a mischievous look on her face that made my eyes widen quickly shaking my head in protest "No saying no we're doing it." She smiled I went to shake my head again but she pulled me with her hand to sprint towards the ride.

People in line immediately recognized Billie in nearly seconds a few smiling and waving and a few other asking for a picture, my heart warmed at how happy Billie looked with them she's always the sweetest towards anyone who knew her there was never a time when I didn't see that smile on her face talking to them.

After a few minutes, every second seemed like we were growing closer and closer to the front of the line and my heart was racing faster with each one, I went to grab Billies hand but her fingers slipped from mine in an instant I frowned turning my head to look at her she gave me an apologetic look her eyes flashing towards the fans she was just talking to a second ago.

"They're taking pictures I don't-"

"I know." "Sorry.." I sighed biting down on my bottom lip, I watched her eyes light up when the gate was opened again and the line moved quickly, I soon realized my fate of not going back when the employees instructed us to sit down, Billie climbed in first making me second to sit next to her after the restraint was locked I finally felt her hand grasp mine in a tight squeeze.

"What if I like.. fall out." I breathed nervously clinching my other hand around the bar restraint tightly "You're not going to fall out that's what the harness is for." She chuckled my breathing growing heavier after the last person was locked in "Yeah no I think I'm gonna head out.." I blurted nervously my nails digging at the restraint to lift it but it wouldn't budge.

Billie snorted out a loud laugh reaching to grab my hand again giving it a squeeze "You're already locked in angel you can't get out." She told me as a pail white expression of fear flashing across my face, she gave my hand another tight squeeze as the ride began to move slowly "Just breath and enjoy it Finley, it just feels like you're flying." She told me I quickly nodded taking in calm breaths.

The ride didn't seem too bad until it started to go up and up until we were at the very top and the only way back down was to drop, the stomach dropping feeling was different from ones I was used to during anxiety attacks this stomach turn was like a big adrenaline rush I couldn't get enough of I liked the feeling surprisingly, but that didn't keep me from being any less scared of falling out and tumbling to my death.