Jin's POV
"Hyung, you are stupid sometimes."
I heard Yoongi behind the closed door. I shut my eyes.
"No. I'm not."
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12-04-17
Today is my birthday and I'm waiting for Taehyung to greet me in my special day. This will be my third birthday that I'll be celebrating with him. And I surely am excited as hell.
I planned on going shopping this day. I need to at least treat myself and pamper myself since it's my birthday.
As I was driving on my way I saw a familiar face. I saw Taehyung. I smiled. Indeed this was a great birthday for me.
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02-13-18
The day before Valentine's. I was walking down the alley. When I saw him again. This time he is smiling. I stopped in my tracks. Those smiles that make my heart flutter. My heart skipped a beat.
I immediately turned away not wanting to be seen.
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08-01-19
"I love you, Jinnie"
I felt it. I touched my heart.
Yes I did felt it.
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05-02-19
Four days simce our anniversary. He did not make it so went to his house. I gave him my gift. He was surprised.
I just watched.
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"I know Yoongi. I clearly know. I choose to be stupid, Yoongi. I chose this. I'm sorry."
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12-04-17
Today is my birthday and I'm waiting for Taehyung to greet me in my special day. This will be my third birthday that I'll be celebrating with him. And I surely am excited as hell.
I planned on going shopping this day. I need to at least treat myself and pamper myself since it's my birthday.
As I was driving on my way I saw a familiar face. I saw Taehyung. I smiled.
I smiled bitter smiles as I slowed down my car and see him with someone else who is not me. I smiled bitter smiles when I remembered what he said, he said he is in Daegu with his parents and he will return to celebrate with me.
I smiled bitter smiles when he kissed the girl and his mouth says 'I love you'
I smiled. Indeed this was a great birthday for me.
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02-13-18
The day before Valentine's. I was walking down the alley. When I saw him again. This time he is smiling. I stopped in my tracks. Those smiles that make my heart flutter. My heart skipped a beat.
I immediately turned away not wanting to be seen.
I turned away, not wanting to see him happy with someone else. I turned away not for him to see the tears in my eyes. I turned away with my heart breaking into pieces.
I turned away. Not letting him know that I knew.
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08-01-19
"I love you, Jinnie"
I felt it. I touched my heart.
Yes I did felt it. I felt the insincerity. I felt the lack of love I felt him being distant. I felt the world just came crushing down. I felt the urge to cry. I felt my heart crushed down to pieces, but at the same time, I felt numb.
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05-02-19
Four days since our anniversary. He did not make it so went to his house. I gave him my gift. He was surprised.
I just watched.
I just watched him hitting on the realization that he actually forgot our anniversary. I just watched him slowly falling out of love from me. I just watched him cheating on me. I just watched him act through out this years that he loves me.
I just watched him lie to me everyday from making excuses that he is busy when I know for a fact that he is not sent to far away places by his boss. When I know that he is busy fucking someone from my back.
I just watched him when everytime he says "I love you, Jinnie" his eyes doesn't speak volumes of love anymore but instead, his eyes speaks visible disgust.
I just watched him.
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All those years he cheated on me with the same person. Does he love her? Why is he still with me?
All these years, I kept myself numb. All these years these scars went deeper and deeper. All these years I showed everybody a fake Jin. All these years I was never me.
I tried to be the best to make him see that I was worth a shot for a second chance. For him to love me again like before. But as I do that he kept on drifting away.
I never want to let him go. I can't I might die when he leaves me. I don't want to live my life without him. He is the reason why I breathe.
Every night I cry myself to sleep trying to convince myself that he is the same Taehyung that I knew from back then.
This is my truth. And I will never let anyone know.
"I'm stupid. But it's the things I'm willing to do for love."
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Hi precious readers 😍 I just wanted you to know that:
1. I really want to thank you for giving me your time and reading this story. I feel like it's as if I'm sharing my soul with you. So really, thank you. I appreciate every votes and reads that I see. That's what keeps me going. So thanks a lot.
2. I'll be doing this in POV style. Mainly because I personally want to connect with my character and give them their own characteristics.
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