Taehyung's POV
"You know why he was not found for a month?
He was r-raped."
I ... I can't understand. Am I hearing things? Is t-that true?
No! That can't be.
"T-that's not a good joke Namjoon. T-tell me it's not true."
I was hoping this is a sick prank for me. I hope this is a dream after all. Maybe I'll wake up now. I should wake up now. And I swear! If God permits, I'll go back and make things right. I won't hurt Jin and be the best man for her.
I'm anticipating to wake up from this nightmare that I am in but to no avail, my wish was not granted.
"No Taehyung. That's the truth. He was unable to talk and wouldn't have the will to eat or do anything. For weeks he always has nightmares and scream in the middle of the night relieving the memory of what happened to him. He would tremble and cry himself to sleep.
My brother told me that what he is experiencing is some of the results of what has happened to him. Some nights when Jin thought that we are asleep he would harm himself and chants to himself that he wanted to end it all.
He thinks he is not worthy of anything and his life is worthless. It took a lot of effort for him to come back here in Seoul to face you and his friends again. He tried to hide it from all of you. Mainly because he don't want anyone else worrying for him. "
I can't believe Jin has to go through all of that by himself. I can't comprehend the horror he must've felt in those times. I should have been there. I should be the one taking care of him. Not other people.
"I know Taehyung that I shouldn't blame you for what happened to Jin but I can't help it because if in the first place you hadn't put a lot of pain and heartache to his heart and mind he wouldn't have gone wasted that night and taken advantage of by those people.
You know what Jin said to me? He said that:
'Joonie, maybe Taehyung was right. I am a slut, a bitch and a whore. Just by merely standing there in that fucking club a group of men took me that night and did horrible things to me.'
I don't know what's gotten to you and you said those words that engraved to him. And with those thoughts always bugging to him he thought he is nothing and a worthless piece of shit."
Namjoon was right. Somehow I'm at fault here. If it is not for me he wouldn't do those things anyway. I didn't know that what I say would be way too deep and scar him to the bones.
Jin was one of the purest being that I have ever met. And he was far from being a slut a bitch or a whore. He has always been faithful and a loving partner. I was just a stupid asshole to treat him like crap.
"I know Namjoon. It's all my fault. I'm the one that pushed him to be like that. The moment tha I realized that I should nake things right, now things are messed up. I want to make it up to him right at this moment. But how can I do that now if I know that I'm the cause of alk of these? How would I face Jin now? I've done nothing but hurt him."
I'm frustrated at myself. But I know that I should stay and apologize to Jin. I didn't do it when he was in the darkest part of his life but I will be here to help him find the light again.
I will start again and change my ways. The moment Jin wakes up I'm going to make things right. That is, if Jin would still want me.
"We're still finding out who did this to him. We will give justice to Jin hyung. Also, I have told Yoongi and Hoseok about the real situation of Jin. They are pretty much angry at you but they can't deny that what Jin needs now is you.
And yes, Taehyung you've hurt him. I'm no professional doctor or whatsoever, but I think it's you who have ruined him, it's also you who will save him."
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After that talk with Namjoon, I went straight to the hospital to visit Jin. I was greeted with a punch on my face brought by Hoseok. I talked to them and apologized for what I have done. We talked things out like an adult and came to terms that we will take care of Jin as soon as he wakes up. After that, they left and give me time to be alone with Jin.
"Jinnie, wake up. I'm now here. I'm sorry please forgive me. I'm going to make things right now Jinnie, just j-just come back to me. Please Jinnie, I Love you. Come back to me."
