Jin's
I cried myself to sleep again last night. This has become my routine for the last two years. There is nothing new here. I am used to this. But still I don't understand.
Why Tae? Why?
Am I not enough? What have I done to make you fall out of love?
Am I ugly? Am I not smart enough? Did I not love him enough. Do I deserve this?
I don't deserve this. But why the hell do I still cope up with him?
I don't understand myself anymore.
Tears starts to well up in my eyes again.
'Stupid tears! Stop!'
Even how hard I tried not to cry my emotions betrayed me. I cried. I cried my heart out. I wanted to shout. I wanted to release this but no one will understand. No one will be there to listen. Even if there is someon willing to listen I will still not tell them. I don't want them to hate Taehyung. Even if he doesn't love me anymore I will still protect him.
I have sworn to myself that I will love him and him alone. No one else. He is and always will be the one for me. Even though I was replaced in his heart and his life, the only good thing that is happening right now is he is not leaving me yet.
Yet ...
I know he will leave me. Soon. I know. I can feel it. He is still hesitating. But he is on the brink of saying it to my face.
I need to prepare myself. I need to. Even if it is the opposite of what my heart wants. If he wants to leave, I'll let him leave. I'll let him go.
Even if it ruins me. I want to make him happy even if it cost my own happiness instead.
As long as Taehyung is happy. I, Jin will support him.
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Taehyung's
I'm in front of Jin's apartment. I will break it to him this day. I need to end this relationship. I'm tired.
I was supposed to do this a year ago but I still pity him. I still cared for him back then, but now I need to be with Iris. I need to be with the one I love.
I purposely do thing to disappoint Jin to send him to the edge of leaving me. But he is so stubborn. He never wants to leave. He always forgets. So, if he won't break up with me, I would break it to him. I won't care about what he will feel.
I already wasted five years of my life that I spent with him. The first three years I really did loved him but as theyeats went by there is nothing left. All the sparks and the love I had has now gone away. That's when I met Iris. She makes me happy and sex with her is amazing. She is never boring unlike Jin. She is outgoing, loves to take me to new heights.
Two years with her is the happiest moments of my life. I will never regret cheating on Jin. Never.
I didn't tell him I was coming. I knocked on his door and he quickly opened it.
"Jin. Let's talk."
I did not bother to look at him. I needed to get this over and done.
"Come."
I sat on his couch. He is standing in front of me.
"I want to end things with you Jin. I don't love you anymore. I already have a girlfriend her name is Iris. We're together for two years now. I love her more than I have ever loved you. I don't want anything to do with you anymore. I don't love you anymore, Jin."
I quickly finished my sentence. I need to say it straight to his face.
I heard sobs coming from him. His shoulders we're shaking. Mouth covered with his hands as he tried to prevent himself from crying out loud. After a few moments he was able to speak.
"Why Tae?"
He is calmer than I thought he would be.
"I just found you boring. You have no thrill. You are too plain. I just found myself looking for something else. There, I found Iris.
Please Jin let me go. I want to be happy."
"What about me, do you think of me?"
"I suffered two years, Jin! Two years of torment with you when I wanted to be with Iris! She suffered because of you! She deserves to be known as the woman I love. You have no right to say that!
We are over Jin! Whether you like it or not, I'm breaking up with you! You can be free now! Be a whore that you are! Go fuck everyone in this town I don't care. You are nothing, Jin. Nothing!"
I can't take it anymore. I left his apartment and called Iris.
"Baby, we're free now."
