Taehyung's POV
Iris asked me to join her for her photoshoot today since I don't have to go to work. I agreed to her. Since it's what good boyfriends do.
While walking inside of the building I saw Jin with someone. What is he doing here? Is he following me? He was smiling at him and they seemed to be having fun.
I scoffed. Now he's using another man to make me jealous. Is he that desperate?
I can't stand the fact that he is here and I am irritated. So when I got the chance to talk to him, I immediately regretted what I did.
"Are you that desperate Jin? Why are you here? Is it not enough that I told you I don't love you, you slut? Why do you need to follow me here?"
I shut my eyes. I shouldn't have said that. I knew he is far from being one, and the hurt in his eyes when I say those words is no joke. I know I caused him deep scars. But I can never take those back. And the fact that I hurted him still haunts me. He seems too scared of me. When I touched him he is shaking terribly. His whimpers, I can still hear those.
And when he fainted, I was stoned in my place. There I realized what I have done, the next thing I knew Jin was out of the building carried by that man who seems to be his new lover.
I knew I said I won't regret leaving him for Iris. But now, my words backfired on me.
I regret what I did. And I think it's already too late.
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05-15-19
A week after I broke up with Jin. I said I was happy but I knew I'm far from being one. How can I be so stupid?
05-20-19
Days pass and realization slaps me right into my face but I have no choice but to face the consequences of my actions. This is the price I have to pay for hurting Jin.
He who is innocent is now in pain and suffering because of me. But will he accept me if he came back?
05-30-19
I'm looking for Jin everywhere, but he can't be found. I need to see him again even if he's far away. Even just a glimpse. I need to see him.
06-07-19
I got what I wanted and I saw Jin again. But I'm blinded by jealousy that I ended up hurting him more. I don't know what's gotten into me and I said those things to him. Now he loathe me, and it's my fault.
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I understood now, I don't really loved Iris. She was just some passing temptation. I put up with her because of the thrill and the thought of having two people wrapped around my fingers. But I didn't realized it then, that Jin was the pefect match for me. Now, I can never get him back.
When I said that I wasted five years of my life spending it with him. I guess it's the other way around. He wasted his time on me.
I'm an asshole. I just hope he will be happy with that new person he found. Because of my stupidity I lost the one who loves me the most.
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After that incident the last day, and with all the realization that hits me. I decided to end things with Iris. I can't make her suffer with me. She asked me why and I answered her truthfully. And her response is:
"It took you too long to notice that you loved him more than what you feel for me? It has always been him right? I knew it even from before. But I decided not to tell you ar say it straight to your face. It's my revenge for you being an asshole."
So all this time, I was the only one who is dumb here.
"Taehyung."
I looked back and saw the man Jin's with the last time.
"I'm Namjoon. We need to talk."
Bewildered, I followed him. I don't know what he will say or do but I still followed him. We ended up sitting in the corner of a café.
"Read that. And I'll tell all you need to know."
He handed me a paper.
A letter from Jin.
TaeTae,
I missed calling you that. I miss you my TaeTae. I know that you are happy now but please let me have this one last time. Okay?
You know that you are the only man that I have loved in ny whole life. And I never imagined that things between us will end so soon. And when you left, nothing felt like home and living is hard. Without you I just breathe to live. I still question why am I not enough for you, but I can never do anything now, as long as you are happy I'll be here supporting you.
If you're reading this, it means I won't bother you anymore. That's what you want right? To have nothing to do with me? Now I'm giving you that. I hope you'll be happy the rest of your life. And in our next life, I hope we'll be better than this.
I just wanted to request one last thing. Even though we're not together please don't forget me. Okay? That once in your life you have met someone named Kim Seokjin. Is that too much? I hope not.
And for the last time, I love you TaeTae.
Till we meet again.
- Jin
Is he leaving? Where is he going?
"Where is Jin? Can you tell me where he is?"
Namjoon started tearing up.
"Tell me where he is!"
He composed himself and spoke in a firm manner.
"Listen to what I'm going to say Taehyung. I will not repeat myself. Jin is in the hospital right now. He committed suicide. He is still not waking up and the doctors are observing him. They say that if Jin doesn't have the will to live anymore he will have a hard time recovering. And worse will come to worst. His mind might decide he won't wake up.
Did you know why he did that to himself?
It's because he can't take it anymore. Two years Taehyung, he knew you were cheating with him for two years. He kept a blind eye of that with all the hopes that you will come back to him and love him as you did before. He never stopped hoping. But he was shattered when you chose that woman over him.
He started going to clubs and drinking himself ti sleep. That's when I met him. I found him on the lowest state of his life."
I was also in tears as he was conveying those to me. I never know that Jin knew all this time. He always kept that smile on his face. He treated me the same and never hinted that he knew. He kept loving me and trusting me. I never really did deserve him at all.
I thought it was all that he has to say when he blurted out the words that I never imagined will come.
"You know why he was not found for a month?
He was r-raped."
And with that my mind went blank.
