Still Dark, Love (Still Series #1)

Hakbang 28

Sometimes in life, we come to a realization that there are certain things we want to change, and if we're fortunate enough to have the opportunity to do so, we should take it, even if others may perceive us as crazy for wanting to alter something we've grown accustomed to.

But... if it's for your growth, then you are not crazy.

You are growing.

For the best version of yourself. For your peace. For your maturity. For your soul.

Stepping out of your comfort zone may be difficult but it is the best risk you could ever take.

Staying the same is not bad. It is your choice. But changing for yourself, is definitely not bad either.

And this is my choice...

"Hashline, you sure about this? Hindi ko gusto ito pero wala akong magagawa sa desisyon mo."

Nandito ako ngayon sa bahay ni Tita Aleah. I am already packing my things. Lilipat na rin kasi ako sa apartment na rerentahan.

She doesn't want me to leave. Aniya ay biglaan at hindi naman ako nagiging pabigat sakaniya.

Nga lang, hindi na mababago ang desisyon ko. Isa pa, nakapagbayad na sa apartment. I don't want to waste this opportunity to live independently.

"Tita, I am very sure. Nakausap ko na rin po sila Mommy at Daddy, they agreed with this."

She sighed heavily and watched me pack my things. Three days ago, tumawag ako kila Mommy para magpaalam sa gusto kong mangyari. Luckily, they agreed with me.

Anila'y ayaw nilang umalis ako sa puder ni Tita Aleah pero ayaw rin naman nilang mahirapan ako araw-araw. Kagaya ng sabi ko, masyadong malayo sa school ang bahay ni Tita. Kakainin ng byahe ang oras ko kapag nagpasukan na.

Ang kinuha kong apartment ay malapit sa school at sa coffee shop na pagtatrabahuhan ko. Malapit din sa hospital kung saan naka-admit si Curl.

Living there would make my life way more easier. I am really thankful for Tita but I guess I needed to do this.

Ang mahirap lang na parte sa paglipat kong ito ay hindi ako sanay mamuhay mag-isa. For the past nineteen years of my life, I have my family with me.

Hindi pa kailanman ako nag-isa sa bahay. Kapag wala sila Mommy at Daddy noon, nandoon naman sila Manang para makasama ko. Kaya masasabi kong malaking pagbabago ang gagawin kong ito. But that's what I am talking about.

To step out of your comfort zone. To try new things. To explore.

And to be independent. This is one of my dreams, right? I will live it now.

I'm scared because I have been so spoiled by my parents. May mga simpleng bagay na hindi ko kayang gawin, like cooking or cleaning the toiler. I don't know much about household chores.

But I am willing to learn. And that's the most important.

"Your boyfriend knows this?" Tanong ni Tita.

Napahinto ako sa pag-aayos ng mga gamit at napatingin sakaniya. My expression already gave her the answer.

"No?" Aniya.

Umiling ako. "Sasabihin ko palang po."

"You think he'll let you?"

Papayagan nga ba ako ni Riordan?

No, I don't think so. But do I really need his permission with this?

"Tita, I understand that we are in a relationship. I respect his decisions and opinions. He also respects mine. And this is my decision. I know Riordan would let me. He's reasonable and there's nothing wrong with this. But even if he would not agree with this, it still won't change anything. Coz like what I said... this is my decision. And I am hoping he would respect it."