Falling For You

Stars

Chapter 29: Stars

Listen to the song Slow Dance by AJ Mitchell and Ava Max.

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Success is 99 percent failure.

--Soichiro Honda.

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I was completely confused, did Ryan just call my favorite boutique shop owner 'mom'?

That's not possible, she looked way too young to have an eighteen year old son! Staring at her harder I tried to look for any similarities between the boy and the woman in tears right now.

Well he did have the same emerald green eyes and the same hair and her height explained alot about his since Mr.West wasn't that tall.

Holy shit! She really is his mother!

"Go after him!" Mark pushed me from behind breaking my train of thoughts.

"Oh yeah!" I said flustered as I ran out of the doors Ryan just walked out of.

"Ryan!" I shouted out before running towards the main entrance and out of the house.

Surely enough I found him leaning on the hood of his car in the parking lot and if this wasn't a bad situation I would've totally pushed him down and made out with him there and then.

"Hey, want to talk about it?" I asked walking up to him.

"What did she think was going to happen?" he laughed dryly, "did she think I'd run back to her? Hug her? Tell her how much I missed her? How much I dreamed of the day she'd finally come back to me? How I waited for her to tuck me in all those years ago? How much I blamed myself for her departure?
And now she's back and it sucks that I actually want to do all that! I can't look her in the eye after everything that happened, I'm just scared I might break down and I don't want her to think she had that impact on me cause even now I still love her! I hate that I love her!" he said breaking down as I caught onto him and he cried in the crook of my neck and I stroked his hair as my heart pricked for him.

"Ryan you shouldn't hate yourself if you love her! She's your mother for heaven's sake, it's absolutely normal for you to still love her. You were young when she left and I will never understand the pain you feel but don't blame yourself for something she did. I'm not justifying what she did either but don't you think you should hear her side of the story?" I spoke out of concern as he continued to cry holding my hands.

"I don't need to hear her tell me, that I was just a burden in her life so she needed to get rid of me" he said wiping his tears as he lifted his head.

"Burden? Is that what you think you are?" I asked smiling a little.

"I don't know maybe?" he asked.

"Ryan 'I don't know your middle name' West look at me" I said raising my hands to rest on his cheeks as I wiped away his tears and stared into his beautiful green eyes.
"You're not a burden, if anything you're the one that lifts the burden! You have no idea how much it kills me to see you like this and if I could, I would take away all the pain but I can't. So I'm going to help you make it better and it'll be a whole lot easier if you let me help you and don't push me away" I said hopefully.