A Second Chance at love

Chapter 33: Tears, laughter and love

We just stood there staring at each other for several minutes, unable to speak, then she said softly, "here's your water." as she handed me the bottle.

"Thanks" I said washing my hands before taking the bottle from her.

"Is everything ok?" she asked handing me some tissues. I just shook my head.

"My husband and I have been fighting a lot, and he has turned into a real jerk!" I said. "and now..." I said unable to finish my sentence.

"You found out your pregnant and unsure if you want to tell him, or how he'll react."

"Exactly" I said. "somebody has done some growing up since I saw them last." I said. The two of us headed into the hotel and towards the elevators, "need someone to talk to?" she aid as we waited for the elevator I nodded "We can go to my room." I said.

We took the elevator up to the floor my room was on " I need to shower and change first." she said "me too" I chuckled I gave her my room number and told her to come back in 20 minutes.

I showered quickly and slipped into comfy shorts and a t-shirt. 20 minutes later she knocked on my door. The two of us sat and talked and laughed for a good couple hours before I realized I needed to get dressed for the concert.

"I'm going too" she said "do you need a ride?" I said as I applied my make-up "that would be great" she laughed "dad, really doesn't want me to go by myself."

She quickly went to get ready and we met in the lobby. "as we walked to my car, I checked my purse to see if the letter I had written Jon was in my purse. "has your dad grown up as much as you have, or do the two of you still think Jon is fruity?" she chuckled and hung her head.

" I never really actually believed he was." she said "my dad kept trying to convince me otherwise, but, I never really believed him." "didn't help that I was involved with the wrong friends at school and was drinking while my grades suffered" she said. "my days now consist of school, homework, chores, "teen AA" meetings and therapy sessions."

"besides that" she said as we drove to the concert, "I could totally see the love he has for you in his eyes when we were all in that meeting." "I hope I find a guy that will love me like that someday" she sighed.

"You're still young" I told her "I'm sure you will" Once in the arena, we headed backstage and I discreetly gave Biscuit the letter and asked him to give it to Jon. We stopped and chatted with the other guys and they were beyond surprised to see Mariah and I together.

Jordan took me aside and asked if I had the chance to talk to "my boneheaded big brother" "not yet" I said. I got the giggles when I saw Mariah making small talk with Joey Joe.

When Jon came in the room, it got so quiet, you could hear a pin drop. I suddenly became very nervous and didn't want to be alone with him.

"We'll let you two talk" Donnie said as they turned to leave "you guys can stay" I said. Mariah buried her nose in a magazine.

Jon walked over by me and said "I read the letter" I nodded "what makes you think I'm not the same guy you married?" he said.

"all the love and romance is gone" -I said "you act like intimacy is a chore--like its something you don't like, but, you have to do it."

"What the hell are you talking about?" he said

"Its simple" I said-- "When was the last time you told me you loved me?" he honestly got a perplexed look on his face, that told me right there that he couldn't remember.

"well, you've been no picnic lately yourself." he said "you're tired and crabby all the time." "and you've been moodier than hell!"

"its like its 'that time of the month' all time for you lately" he said.

"Did you ever stop and think that I would be in a better mood if maybe, just maybe you were more loving towards me like you were before?"

"ME??!" Jon said raising his voice "why is this my fault?- YOU'RE the one that stopped loving me after all those negative pregnancy tests."

Out of the corner of my eye I saw Donnie cover his face with his hands and shake his head as if to say 'I can't believe you just said that you idiot'

"Stopped loving you??" I said feeling tears trickling down my face "what on earth gave you the idea that I stopped loving you?"

"just your overall moodiness, and the fact that we are having trouble with...well...you know" I figured you thought it was my fault."

The two of us went back and forth with things getting more and more heated and him continually complaining about my moodiness.

"JONATHAN!" Mariah said over the racket we were making. "YOUR WOMAN HAS EVERY RIGHT TO BE TIRED , CRANKY AND MOODY!-- AND, SHE HAS A GOOD REASON FOR IT- SHE'S HAVING YOUR BABY, YOU BIG JACKASS!!!!!!"

The room fell silent as she quickly left the room realizing what she had just said.

Jon just stared at me and said, "oh, real funny, she's lying through her teeth again--there is no way she's preggers and if she is--- it sure as hell ain't mine!

"What the hell are you talking about?" I said trying not to laugh. The guys were chuckling as Joey said " clean out your ears Jon, Jordan put his hand on his big brother's shoulder and said softly... Mariah never said she was having your baby, she said Chrissy is.."

He just stared and blinked like he was trying to process what Jordan had said. The others got it and had dopey grins on their faces.

"You mean...?" he said " I nodded and said softly "I'm pregnant."

Before he could respond Biscuit and Bubba came in and said it was time to get ready for the show. As they ushered the guys out Mariah came back and apologized all over the place to me for blabbing it to Jon.

"Don't worry about it." I said. anyways--I doubt he even cares" we went and found our seats and watched the opening acts.

The crowd was electric when the guys took the stage, and stayed that way through the whole concert. After the show we hung out with the guys for awhile, Jon kept his distance, and said nothing to me.

After about 15 min of the silent treatment from my husband, Mariah and I left and headed back to the hotel. "I am so confused" I told her, "I thought he would be thrilled with the news, since we've been trying for awhile now."

"maybe he's just overly tired" she said. She sat in my room with me and we talked until after midnight, nearly two an half hours after the concert had ended, and Jon never came to my room.

I tried calling his room several times and got no response. Mariah left, and said she would stop by in the morning to see how I was doing.

I slept horribly the whole damn night!