A Second Chance at love

Chapter 9: out with the old

I went in the house and grabbed the hamper. When I came out Donnie said, "um, she does know you wash laundry, not burn it.."

"I'm aware of that Donnie" I said laughing "Just erasing the douchebag from my life and my memory."

"Can I erase him from planet earth?" Danny asked reaching for a can of coke "that would be sooo sweet!" then he laughed.

"Trust me Puff, if his cellmates and or other prisoners get wind of what he did and to whom, considering there was a child involved, a newborn at that --his ass will never see the light of day again." Jordan informed his friend "its like they have an unwritten rule no matter how big of scumbags they are that trying to hurt/hurting/killing kids is a big time no-no."

Jon said nothing as I began throwing the items one by one into the bonfire, and damn it, it felt good!" we were all talking and having a good time as I continued throwing stuff in when a voice behind called out "Man, whatever you're cooking, it smells like it died!!"

I spun around and saw Joe laughing "Real funny Joe-bird" I chuckled. "she's getting rid of some unneeded crap from the loser." Jordan told him.

As I threw the last couple items in it was though a huge weight had been lifted from my shoulders as I felt a sense of relief wash over me as that painful chapter of my life was coming to a close.

I had two more therapy sessions that week and stuck with the 3 a week schedule for the rest of the month., and the following month.

Dr. Wakefield saw so much progress in me at the end of the second month , she cut me back to once a week unless something happened and I need to come in another time.

Jon and I had even started having one night a week when he was home where we would go see a movie , or go out to dinner, sometimes we'd even order in and stay home and watch a movie. We had a lot of long talks too.

I told him I was looking for a place for Emma and I, so that he could have us out of his hair. As he got up to put our plates in the dishwasher, I thought to myself "I'm just not looking very hard."

As we sat and watched TV one night several weeks later, I actually found myself wanting to sit closer to him, so I moved closer to him on the couch and rested my head against his shoulder. He sighed softly as he gently put his arm around me and for the first time in a LONG time I didn't jump out of my skin or pull away from him.... And I felt something inside me that I hadn't felt in years, but I said nothing.

As the end of their break approached we went to his mom's for a big dinner, and Allison just kept staring daggers at me. Jon and I managed to get away while everyone was fussing over Emma and how big she was getting, as we made our way up to his old room, it reminded me of how we'd sneak around in high school when we wanted to go up to his room and make-out.

At the end of the hallway he opened the door, and we stepped inside, I reached for the light switch as he shut the door behind us. "Holy Cow!" I laughed, "it still looks the same as it did back then." he laughed and 'said "it really does doesn't it" I watched as he walked over and sat on the bed and motioned for me to come and sit next to him.

"I already talked to my mom and she'd be willing to watch Emma for a week, that is if you'd like to come with me on the road." he smiled. "You have been through so much, you deserve a vacation."

"Wow!" I said "I don't know what to say, I mean this is so sudden.."

"Take you're time and think about it it wouldn't be till the end of next month when we tour 4 days and then have 10 days off-seeing how our last show is in Florida I figured we could just stay there, maybe go visit Mickey and his friends." he told me.

"We could go see my mom too, she only lives 20 minutes away from Disneyworld." I said then quickly added "If I decide to come." "It stormed really bad that night and Marlene didn't want anyone driving in it, so she put us up for the night.

Allison demanded that I sleep on the living room couch adding, "I won't be responsible for my actions if I catch your trampy ass sneaking into my little brother's room."

"Allison!" he mom scolded her, "Jonathan is not a little boy you need to protect and look out for anymore, he is a 22 year old man that can make his own decisions-if he wants Chrissy to sleep in his room tonight, there is nothing we can do about it, even if we don't agree with it."

Allison said nothing, just stared at us as we headed upstairs, stopping by the hall closet to grab an air mattress and pillow. "you can sleep in my bed, and I'll sleep on the air mattress on the floor." he told me as we went into his room.

"Are you sure?" I asked him "positive" he told me with a smile "do you need..." his sentence was cut off by a soft knock at his bedroom door.

"Who is it?" Jon asked as he inflated the air mattress. "Its just me ." Jordan replied from the other side, "I've got someone here who wants to say goodnight to her mommy and daddy."

Jon let him and Emma in and we hugged her and kissed her goodnight telling her we loved her and would see her in the morning. "Night big brother" Jordan chuckled "goodnight bratty baby brother" Jon said laughing and smiling.

Jordan gave me a smile and said "Goodnight Chrissy." and gave me a quick hug. As he started to close the door behind him, I heard Allison in the hallway "nighty night Emmie Auntie Allie loves you."

I went and brushed my teeth a soon as I knew she was in her room. When I went back into Jon's room, he was already in his pajama bottoms and getting himself comfortable on the air mattress. I reached over and switched off the light and laid down on his bed- I couldn't get comfortable, I was still in my shorts and t-shirt.

Jon and I talked for awhile since we couldn't sleep when his door opened slightly and Allison said, "Jon, are you guys asleep?"

"No" he replied "Is something wrong?" in the dim moonlight I saw her step into the room Jon muttered something as he yawned.. "no, nothing's wrong, I just had the thought as I got into bed that Christina might need something to sleep in, so I brought her an extra pair of my pajamas. Allison said.

To say I was surprised, was an understatement. "that was thoughtful of you Allison" Jon said as I got up to get them from her. " I really appreciate it" I said "jean shorts were not meant to sleep in." I giggled. she laughed and told me the shorts had an elastic drawstring waist if they seemed too big. I thanked her again and she left. I made my way to the bathroom and changed quickly- I laughed as I caught my reflection in the mirror, the pajamas were identical to a pair of esleep pajamas I had back at Jon's. and they fit me great.

I slipped back into Jon's room and set my clothes on the dresser and climbed into bed. "better?" Jon asked "Much better I replied with a yawn. " I don't get it I said getting comfortable in bed, she despises me yet she does something nice for me--what gives?"

"I don't have a clue." he said yawning "Goodnight Chrissy sweet dreams"

"Goodnight Jon I said softly as my eyelids suddenly felt as though they weighed a ton. We were both soon fast asleep.

A couple hours later I awoke suddenly to Jon muttering and cursing under his breath.

Jon met with the guys that afternoon to go over some things for the next leg of their tour.

The day the left to go back on the road, I watched as he hugged Emma and kissed her goodbye "Daddy's gonna miss you." he said "be a good girl for mommy, I love you." she laughed and babbled it was soooo cute!

Jon and walked over to the door together, and when he hugged me goodbye he held me like he didn't want to let go. "hopefully, I'll see you in Florida at the end of the month." he said softly as he held me close.