Still Here | Robsten

Chapter 13: When our eyes meet

Back to 2012...

Staring at the ceiling.

I've cried out everything.

Everything that's stayed with me for the past month.

It's been so painful.

So hard.

So difficult.

He's gone.

He's gone.

Because of....me.

"Twilight actor Kristen Stewart still has not been seen in public since her affair with Sanders. Will she show at her own movie premiere tonight at TIFF?...if"

I slam the button of the remote so hard, that even I was surprised by my own strength. I'm currently in my trailer, waiting to get my hair done. It's been awhile since I've shown myself to the public, mostly because of the pain, and the fear of what others will say. I always tell myself that other people's opinions don't matter, but I don't want anyone to say anything about Rob. 

He's done nothing.

A knock on my door took me out of my daze.

"Ah!"

I squirmed as eye shadow was put on my eyelids.

"Stay still, I promise it will look good"

My hair and makeup artist, Emily  loves to glam me up, I hate looking like every other celebrity. With all of their makeup and all of the glam, I wish I could just wear whatever to a premiere and just be done.

"Ok done!"

My heart starts racing.

Seeing all those cameras scares me. 

It's an unfamiliar feeling.

I've seen thousands of flashes.

Yet these are...intimidating.

As I step out onto the orange carpet, my legs start to tremble. But, as soon as I saw how many supportive fans that were shouting my name were there, I felt; safe.

As I see her in the crowd

I try to get a closer look.

As I lock eyes with hers

Without her even seeing me.

I start to tear up.

She's stunning.

But, those eyes

Those beautiful green eyes.

They're missing something.

The light that radiates off her

Is now gone.

Because I left.

Because I walked out.

Because I didn't let her explain.

She turns around and we lock eyes.

"Rob?"

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