an ode to the loveless, these are for you.

something may be wrong

i give myself a headache.
i'm pounding on my skull,
i'm standing in front of my frontal lobe.
screaming for an escape;
"GOD JUST LET ME GO!"
but i forget god doesn't answer, he doesn't care.
yet i wonder, who am i to question religion when i don't even know what i am myself?
i'm nothing,
i'm atoms,
i'm cells,
i'm tissue,
then organ,
then organ system,
then human.
sometimes i feel humans are too complex, why do we gather and dance when music comes on?
music is just vibrating sound waves.
why did we evolve?
what makes me so paranoid?
what's watching me?
who knows?
then i realize i'm still trapped in my own head.
no one truly knows the real me,
no one knows who i really am.
i don't truly know anyone else either.
everything is a lie.
mother said "question everything" and i may have taken that to heart, i can't name one thing i've never questioned.
authority, jesus, love, you, myself.
i wonder why i have a headache...