an ode to the loveless, these are for you.

why am i up at 4 am again thinking of you?

i miss being embraced,
not just hugged.
i miss being fully captivated physically and mentally by someone.

i want that someone to be you.

i sat in the rain the other day,
and with each droplet that fell upon me,
i imagined they were kisses.
kisses from you.

i imagined how it would feel to be kissed by you,
because your lips always look so soft.

and when i came back to reality i cried.
there were probably more tears than there were droplets of rain.

and to quote an amazing band,
the 1975,
i don't wanna be your friend,
i wanna kiss your neck.