an ode to the loveless, these are for you.

i can't feel my face

it's a Friday night,
and i'm all the way in the clouds.
still with you on my mind,
i would like to know why you must be on my mind?
why must you use it as your pillow?

why does it bother me so much you're loving another?
i shouldn't care,
but i do.

where did the time go?
the months flew past so fast and i lost ability to keep track.
weeks, days, seconds,
they all feel the same.
the same rush, flow,
the years blend together and i can't imagine i've grown.

i've learned to sacrifice myself a lot to keep the world happy,
but why can't i ever have joy?
why do i have to give all of mine to everyone else?
it's a robbery.

but it seems as long as you're happy,
it doesn't matter what i am.
at least you can't be hurt by me anymore.