Hidden Moon [Completed]

chapter 10

You know, one thing I never would have thought to get was a male so warm, comfortable and calming. Especially when he strokes my hair in a calming and loving way. I thought his reaction would be diffrent. I'm scared that if I tell him what my job is or, should say, what I am he won't want me and he will reject me. I can't handle that. I'm trying to not fall for him but I can't help it. I alsready am and I barely know him.

"What are you thinking about, love?" Tyler asks rubbing my back.

"Things." I can't tell him. It's too embarrassing and I can't ruin my ego. I sound so cocky. Ugh! I sound like the guys.

"What type of things?" He asks. Is he trying to fish it out of me? 

"Like how your reactions are diffrent from others from what just happened." I say calmly. Wow, where did all this boldness come from? Please, mind, don't say something stupid.

"Are they usually scared of you?" He asks resting his chin on my head. I close my eyes and sigh.

"Yes and you seem calm. It's peaceful." I say. God I need to keep my mouth shut. Why is it on automatic answering!? Can I switch it back to manual answering?

"I'm not afraid of you or what you can do. You aren't the only one who's killed someone."

I turn my head to look up at him. "But it's not your job to kill people." Shit! Mind think things through! You are going to mess shit up if you don't shut the hell up!

His brows furrow. "What do you mean its your job?" He seems pissed and confused.

I quickly climb to the passenger seat to avoid the pissed of male in the back seat. I accidently hit Jack in the head with my foot, making him swerve and Tyler to growl. I plop into the passenger's seat ina not so graceful way.

"What do you mean its your job?!" Tyler half yells.

"What do you think that means?" I ask putting the gun in the glove box. I want to avoid eye contact as much as possible. Eye contact is a dangerous gane to play. He will know my emotions. Remind me to learn how to mask emotions again and to learn how to show opposite emotions.

"That you are some damn government person!" Tyler says with fury.

"NO!" Complete offended. I don't wantnto be considered a frigeen dumbass. We use the government, not the other way around. "I am not a government official. Have you ever heard of a spy? Or how about an assassin?" I ask.

"Yeh. I've heard of both. They are government rats. Dad told me to kill any of them to protect myself. He says they are a disgrace to humans because of their lust for blood." Tyler says with venom in his voice.

That's exactly what I wanted to avoid. "We aren't with the government." I snap, fury evident jn my voice. "I don't how to explain that part. But for me that isn't true. I am a trained assassin but my job is spy. I protect people by killing others. That's my job. And right now one of my past protectees wants me dead for killing his father to protect him." Please understand that I'm not lustful for blood. God how crazy my life is! Why can't I be average?!

"You are still an assassin! How do you live with yourself?!" He asks me with venom and hate.

I feel my face drop. I didn't want him to be like this. I don't want to have him reject me. I can't handle it. I feel the tears about to fall. I feel Jack put his hand on my arm. Tyler lets out a growl that sounds like frustration and possession. Jack quickly pulls his hand away. That pisses me off! He is pissed at me but yet my best friend can't try to calm me before I do something stupid? He needs to learn!

"Thing is Tyler. I have asked myself the same question and it came up with bad consequences. Deadly consequences." I turn to look him in the eyes, pure, raw fury emitting from me. "I nearly killed myself to rid myself of this title and to protect everyone from myself. Don't fucking lecture me on how I can survive with this job because I barely can and have. It has slowly ruined my life and I can't escape it. I never wanted to drag you into this but I have no choice."

I turn back and look out my window. I feel the tears fall down my face. God I am such a emotional person. I lay my head on the window and let my hair fly out the window. I notice it reflect the light of the moon, which makes my hair an ever brighter white. I don't know what to call my hair anymore. It is platinum blonde but it looks white.

How did my life get so crazy? It went from being a twin to becoming an assassin to having the twin die in front of me to finding out I'm half wolf- half human and that I have a mate.

Sadly, it became crazy whe dad signed me and Nate up for military class but it ended up being the class for the headquarters for the Assassin agency. The AAH. I have a tattoo of that on my hip. It has a pretty cool logo.

I hear Tyler growl and stop repeatedly.  As if he can't make up his mind. It calms me and yet breaks me apart. How the hell does one person have this much of an influence over me? I don't like this! 

I prefer being emotionless amd independent. I wipe the tears off my face. I stare at the side of the highway and the other cars that pass by. God how I wish I had their lives. So carefree and innocent. I somehow and eventually fall asleep. Thank you, I'm done with the mess of emotions I am. I want no more. Please give me my old life back! I will be a better child I swear!