Hidden Moon [Completed]

chapter 27

I feel the need to kill lessen with every step. But I know no one is safe around me. Not for a while. Not after the tally marks I have added to my list. Even if they are creatures.

I pull out my knife and just slash the trees wildly as I run, trying to calm myself, tears on their own not helping. I trip over a branch and land on my hands and knees with the knife sliding on the dirt. I sit on my butt and pull my knees to my chest while I lean my forehead on my knees, rocking back and forth.

I feel tears running down my face but I don't care. I can't believe I did that! I went on a killing spree. I know better! Everytime I do this I kill everyone. That's why they never call me for assassin missions anymore. Ever since that one time.

"Don't go and kill everyone you see!" One of the boys says to me and breaks into laughter.

I just grinned and waved to him. He grined back and tossed me one of the guns. I caught it and we went into the warehouse. I took the left side and used the shadows to hide me, knowing my hair is the key to finding me. I listened to the commands from my instructor. We stood and listened intently, being rookies and trainees we need to know this stuff.

"Keep only innocent alive! Don't kill the first person you see! They have no idea we are here and I plan to keep it that way. Try to get to the main base and report to me what you see. Remember, don't kill everyone."

I didn't listen. I shot every person I met with deadly accuracy. I hear the guy whistle to stop but the need to kill took over and snapped. It's like a switch and it won't turn off. I killed everyone I saw or could kill. When I stopped I froze and stood standing and realizing what I did. I killed everyone in my sights. Including a few of our unfortunate men.

The guy ran up to me angrily and scolded me and said I needed help. I was still in a trance and lashed out and killed him in blind rage. I froze and the switch snapped off. Someone else came up slowly and talked me out of it. He explained it happened to a few and it made them the best but sometimes unstoppable. He said with the correct trainning I could learn to control it and make it bend to my will.

I did learn. A little bit but I still did try. I still do. I have a new instructor and he has the same issue. He can't be killed by me and vice versa. He taught me to feel deep guilt and realize who is around me and notice how important they are.

I take deep breaths to calm myself. I am human. I feel emotions. I am not a robot or a hollow shell. I feel like I am though. Nothing left.

Snap!

I look up and see Tyler walking towards me in his human form. He threw on a blue t-shirt and a pair of black shorts. I see his eyes have worry and hurt etched deeply in them. I lower my eyes and stare at the ground.

I am calm. I won't kill him. I can't. I love him. I feel my eyes widen. I love him?

You do love him.

You feel it deep inside yourself.

You aren't as hollow as you think, and he's the cause.

The shadows are talking again and they always state things. I feel him move closer and he sits in front of me. A smell of pine and chocolate comes over to me. It calms me but makes me feel worse because I could have hurt him. I feel the tears start again. I crawl to him and he pulls me onto his lap. I rest my head on his chest and hold onto his shirt with my hand. He wraps his arms around me and is calming me like you would a little child. It helps but the tears refuse to stop.

"I'm here for you. I don't know what I did but I'm sorry." He says putting his cheek on top of my head.

"You didn't do anything. It's all me and my issues and they hit me hard at once and I-" I start to say until he places his lips on mine. So soft and caring. So gentle.

He pulls away and looks me in the eyes. "Good because I felt like I did something wrong and I felt like you were going to shun me."

"Not on purpose. I just have issues that I still can't control." That about explains everything about me.

"I will help you." He says wiping the tears off my face. "You don't have to fight alone."

I give off a strangled laugh. "That's one if them. Fighting. That's why I didn't want you close because I have this issue where if I fight and kill for a while it...like...clicks into place and I kill anyone nearby. I've been trying to learn how to control it but it does come through a few times and I didn't want any of you hurt if it did." I finish off with my eyes on the dirt.

"Hey, look at me." He says. I look up to him and meet his eyes. "I will help you. Everyone has that problem. Most wolves do and it doesn't shock me that you have it. I just want to help you so you aren't afraid."

"Afraid of hurting others." I mutter under my breath looking back down to the ground.

"You won't have to worry about that." He says kissing the top of my head.

"You kissed me." I say with shock and happiness.

"Yes I did. Are you upset about it?" I hear him laugh.

I turn and give him a grin. "What if I am upset about it?"

He raises a brow and gives me a mischievous smirk. "Then I will have to step up my game."

I stand up and stare him down. "No you don't."

"So you've fallen for me now? I finally won you over?" He has hope.

"Yes and no." I give him a shrug.

I hear him laugh. "You've fallen for me. I can tell. I have that effect on women."

"Oh really? You have that effect? I don't think so sweetie." I pat him on the cheek and go to grab my knife.

I stand and stick it in my belt. He grabs me around the waist. "Where are you going?"

"Home. Wanna come?"

I hear him purr. "Sure."

He lets me go and grabs my hand. We walk in silence.

"Thank you." I say bumping into him playfully.

"What for?" He asks confused.

"For everything I guess. For coming back for me, for protecting me, staying with me when I was at the hospital. It means a lot to me. You have no idea."

"You are my mate. I have to protect and take care of you. You have grown on my wolf and me. I wouldn't leave you for anyone."

"I've grown on you? Does that make me a fungus?" I start laughing.

"If so then it's one I don't mind."

We walk the rest of the way silently. But it wasn't awkward just nice and quiet. We step into the clearing that connects to the backyard and I see three figures running full speed at us. I blink and they are holding me in a bone crushing hug.

"Can't...Breathe! Let....Go!" I somehow gasp out.

They drop me and I take in a breath. I look and see dad and Bruce with huge smiles on their faces. I see an exact replica of myself in male form. My twin. My dead brother.

"Nate." I whisper out, shocked and thrilled.