The Reason/ 5SOS & 1D

Part Twenty Three Luke P.O.V

Ill admit it was really hard being around Cassie all the time. After we broke up I thought the tour would be my escape from everything happening back home, but now it seems like everything has just followed me here. 

Im still in love with Cassie, but I think we are better when we arent together. Sometimes things are just less complicated when you are just friends. And with everything going on with the tour, and the band Im glad that things arent complicated. 

Ashton and I are finally settled into our room and It felt really good to just lay down and not worry about anything. 

"Can you believe we're here? This just seems so crazy to me. I never thought the whole being in a band thing would actually get me anywhere in life. And now we're on a tour with the biggest boy band in the world." 

Ashton was right. We all started this band simply because we loved to play music. We never thought anything of it, but I guess things change. 

"I know man. Its insane. I get to have the time of my life with the people that are most important to me. It couldnt get any better."

Im happier than I have been in a long time. Ever since I found out about my dad things have been really hard. But they were finally starting to look up.

"Speaking of people that are important to you, have you talked to Cassie lately?"

"I dont know what to say to her. I know she still has feelings for me and I still have feelings for her too, but I think its better this way. Things are easier. I just wish we could go back to being friends, but I think it might be too late for that." 

Of course he had to bring her up. I've been thinking about this situation every since we stepped foot on the plane. Im gonna be around Cassie probably everyday for the next year, and if we cant be friends then things are gonna be really awkward. 

"Have you tried just talking to her? I know Cassie, and I know she isnt the type to just shut someone out. You guys have a future together. Whether its being together or being just friends is up to you guys but I cant imagine you not being in each others lives." 

"You're right Ash. I need to go talk to her." 

My mind was racing as I walked down the hallway. I had no idea what I was going to say but I was dying to talk to her, to work things out. 

The elevator ride was filled with nothing but the sound of my own breathing and the dings of each floor it passed. 

The door opened and I looked up, only to be met by the one person I wanted to see. 

"Hey Luke, what are you doing up here?"

"Uh, I was just going to talk to Calum. Where are you going?" 

Why did I just say that. I dont need to talk to Calum, I need to talk to Cassie. 

"I was just going to check out the pool. Ill see you around." 

I didnt even get a chance to say something before she turned around and disappeared down the stairs.

Instead of following her I got back into the elevator and went back to my room. 

Ashton was sitting on his bed scrolling through something on his phone when I walked in. 

"Hey, how'd it go?"

"I chickened out. I told her I was going to talk to Calum. Its like everytime I get around her I freeze up. Maybe Im just afraid." 

I was afraid. I hadnt realized until now that I was terrified of what Cassie would say to me. 

"Luke, what could you possibly be afraid of. This is Cassie we're talking about." 

"What if she doesnt want to be just friends and I lose her all together? I dont know if I can handle that." 

Ashton just sighed and put his head in his hands. 

"You're never going to know unless you talk to her. Its better to just get it out of the way." 

I know he's right, I just cant make myself do it. 

"I will, eventually. I just need to figure out what to say first." 

"Luke, you're a singer. You dont need to say anything."

Of course. Why had I not thought of that. 

I got up to grab the notebook and pen on the desk. I knew exactly what I was going to write. 

I finished up the chorus and grabbed my guitar before I headed out the door. It's two in the morning but I dont care. I need her to hear this now. 

I walked out of the elevator and stood in front of her room door. 

I took a deep breath and knocked. 

"Hey man, what are you doing here, and why do you have a guitar?"

Calum asked after he opened the door.

"I need to see Cassie." 

He didnt even hesitate before opening the door and letting me in. 

"Cas, wake up." 

He shook her and her eyes finally opened. She looked around and her eyes landed on me. 

"What are you doing here so late?"

"I need you to hear this. I know that things have been weird between us ever since we broke up and I hate it. I know that you still have feelings for me and Im still working on getting over my feelings for you Cas. I just think things are easier with us just being friends. We were friends before, why cant we go back to that? Please just hear me out. I wrote something, and I really want you to hear it." 

She nodded, so I sat on the bed beside her and started strumming.

You say its no concern, and everythings alright.

Sometimes we all get burned, and then we try to hide.

oh and I know and I know and I know we're wrong. I shouldve things slide. 

Cause when the night gets dark, and theres no way back.

Ill call your name, but its fading. We're fading. 

You know something I dont. Its not like you to be cold. 

Every night replayed over and over.

You say things that I dont. You make me feel alone.

Every night replayed over and over. 

So many times you say, you're staying out tonight. 

I wish that I could just walk away, but I wont leave you behind. 

Cause when the night gets dark and theres no way back.

Ill call your name but its fading, we're fading. 

You know something I dont, it's not like you to be cold. 

Every nigth replayed over and over. 

You say things that I dont. You make me feel alone.

Every night replayed over and over. 

"Thats all I got so far." 

I saw a tear slip from her eye. 

"No Cas, dont cry. I didnt mean to make you sad. I just wanted you to know that Im hurt too. And I want us to be friends. Because its true. I wont leave you behind." 

"Thank you Luke. Of course we can be friends." 

I felt like a heavy weight was lifted off my chest. 

"And Luke.."

She grabbed my hand and I looked into her hazel eyes. 

"I promise we'll never fade."