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•Chris
"Mr. Brown." The therapist smiled as I opened the door for her.
"How you doing?" I asked, inviting her in.
"I'm doing well, how are you?" She asked as I led her into the the living room.
"A little depressed but..."
"Why is that?"
"Me and my child's mother ain't talking." The baby mama that I didn't care to talk to either way was getting along with me. The one I actually like wanted to act stank.
"Okay, question. Is she just your child's mother or is it something deeper?"
"Deeper, way deeper. I have two kids. My first baby mama is just that. Hazel though, Hazel is... my soul mate. I don't know, there's this weird feeling I get when i'm not with her."
"And why aren't you with her?" I sighed
"Cause I fucked up." I shook my head, looking down at my hands.
"Admittance" She nodded. "What did you do that was so messed up?"
"Didn't take advantage of the time she gave me to work on myself. She was doing it for me, for us but I didn't do what I was supposed to."
"Wanna go a little deeper?"
"We were having problems the last couple months of our relationship. It was obvious we needed to do something about it. The way Hazel is, she wants to figure things out on her own. Therapy wasn't gone be an option for her and at the time, our communication wasn't strong enough for that alone to mend our relationship." She nodded
"So when you guys broke up, did you come to some sort of agreement?" I nodded
"We were supposed to be taking time apart from each other to see what we could learn about ourselves and what we could correct so we could come back into the relationship with a clean slate. She stuck to her word but I went in the opposite direction. It's this one girl that I seem to get caught up with when Hazel and I aren't involved."
"I see. Does she understand the dynamics of you and Hazel's relationship?"
"I thought she did but her behavior said something different."
"What do you mean?" I shrugged.
"I don't know, she just seemed possessive over me. It was like she was in a deeper relationship with me than I was in with her." She nodded
"Typical male behavior. In your head, the relationship wasn't that complex but if you're whispering things in her ear to keep her around, what is she supposed to think? You can't just assume a woman knows your intentions."
"But the first time we were talking, I told her I wasn't ready because I was still in love with Hazel. The second time me and Hazel broke up, the first thing I called her for was sex. She should see a pattern."
"Once again, you can't expect her to automatically catch on to that. Not every female is the same. This reflects poorly on your end more than hers. If you can't be comfortable in being single or going without sex for a while, then there's an issue within yourself that you need to figure out. You're obviously insecure about something if you think you have to have female attention to cope."
"I ain't insecure bout shit."
"You may not know it yet but I can sense some insecurities." I sighed, she was right. I was heavily insecure, I just didn't want to let anyone that close to me to know that.
