Weird Times

Hahaha Fear

10/15 I don't know how to start this, but let's just say I'm losing it. Well where to start. I've said in the past that I myself have had some weight issues. And well I decided to check up on it, and let's just say it was shit. Honestly these last few weeks I've been eating my feelings. And now I'm at my all time biggest weight. I'd rather not say for personal reasons, but it's not good. So why am I telling this right now? You see I go to the doctor in a few weeks and I'll have to explain why I gained so much weight, And honestly I don't want to go all in depth about how the fuck I eat my feelings. How I eat when I'm stressed or sad, I just don't want to. And I rather not go back to eating so little food to where even standing up makes me so dizzy. Honestly I feel like absolutely trash.

10/22
I wrote that a little while ago. And honestly now I'm still scared, but I am just wishing for the best. But I'm going to worry about that when that comes. Right now I just want to relax. These last few day have been quite hectic. So I'm looking forward to a little more peace. So yah great.

I'm sorry I haven't been posting as much I'm quite busy, but I promise I'll and upload more

Good night guys