IT'S ALL IN YOUR HEAD

Chapter 57- ...Before The Storm

I slammed my door behind me, sliding my back down the cool metal. For the first time in a long time, I sat and cried. Full on sniffles, tears, and puffy red eyes. But beyond the sarcasm, I really hurt

My eyes began to fill with tears as I imagined all that could happen. I saw over and over the face of the boy that I loved so much. Wait... Love? Shut up Kat.

I just couldn't dry my eyes. I sobbed and sobbed, my lungs aching from crying. I didn't want this day to come. I thought that it never would; that I would stay in this asylum and that peace that I knew would never end.

But it only got worse when I heard a knock on my door. "Go away," I sobbed. No answer, only another knock. "I said..." I stood up," go away." I threw open the door and was ready to scream but stopped at the face of Lillian.

She stormed into my room, pushing my in with her, and shut the door. She pushed me into my bed. "What are you-" I began but she cut me off. "Hell no! I get to talk! You have put me through so much. And I obeyed every last thing you wanted me to so you listen up.

"You told me something was going to happen and that I needed to act normal, and I have! So why on earth are you in your room bawling like a baby!" She was mad, obviously and I saw her point.

"I'm sorry..." I said gently. "Get up!" She said sternly. "What?" I said wiping a tear from my eye. "I said get up. You do not get to sit in her and whine and cry like a four year old. So stop hiding and expressing your feelings through your eyes like a child and get up!"
I stood up. "Better," she sighed. "Now what's the plan."

*****

I walked out of my room with Lillian, afraid as ever but ready. I knew what was coming but now, I was ready to deal with it. Or so I thought.

As hard as it was, Lillian and I ignored each other for that day. Seeing me made her panic. I could see it in her eyes just as she could see the fear in mine. But we trekked on, hoping to just get through that day but it wasn't but three hours before it all began.
The storm.

I knew the storm was coming. When the 'calm' broke I knew that the storm was coming and that storm started right at 3:05 pm in the Eastern Sanitarium, in the town of Calliber.

****

I trudged out of my room, hungry and tired, looking for Rickey to see what he was up to but when I existed the door, everyone was focused on their own things. Nurses examining things and administering medicines, kids talking to walls, each other, or no one in particular, orderlies keeping watch over it all.

I saw Rickey, noticing the back of his hair. I was amazed that I knew him that well. But he was engaged in a conversation with one of the nurses. So I decided that I would see where Lillian was. Nothing had happened so I thought no harm would be done if I talked to her.

I tapped on her shoulder and she turned around but before either one of us could speak, gun shots blared in my ears.

Sound familiar?