His Miss Alpha • BOOK I

Chapter VI

"Where the heck were you?!!"

"I-I was playing!"

I moved slightly.

"With who?!"

"Callie and Macey!"

I trembled.

"What were you talking about??"

"O-our future mates! I want a mate, mommy!"

I sighed.

"You won't get one for now and that's good. Mates only slow you down. I hope you end up broken without your other half just like I did! I never found him! The man I slept with...he left me broken! Your ridiculous father! He died all because of you!"

A tear moved down my cheek.

"B-but I didn't do anything, mom! I wasn't even there!"

"You're his child! You're not mine! You never were." She came near me with her whip.

Screaming broke throughout my room and two hands shook me abruptly. I was going to get hurt! I pushed the person with all the force I could muster and sat up, my eyes gleaming bright yellow, my cheeks wet with tears.

"A-Alpha, I wanted to make sure you were alright." Mallory was on the floor, her face concerned, as she whispered softly. "I could sense your disturbance."

"Oh...I'm fine. I'm sorry you had to get up." I kicked the sheets away and pulled her up off the floor. "Did I hurt you?"

"That's alright and no, you didn't." My Delta smiled, yet I could notice her wincing as she stood up.

My hands immediately pulled her shirt up a bit and I noticed a slight bruise starting to form just above her stomach. I put my hands to my mouth in shock. What was my pain starting to become? Would I start inflicting it on my closest members and even my friends? I was just going to become like her.

"I'll send you to the pack doctor. I really am sorry." I grabbed my green hoodie and black boots.

"What about Mila and Chase?" She whispered back.

"They'll be fine for a bit. I think they're still sleeping, otherwise, they'd come in here."

After I took her to be examined by the doctor I went back to my favorite place in the house, the loft, and lay there, thinking. It had been only two days since I had that conversation with West. I noticed that I was becoming weaker because I hadn't had his touch. He probably felt the same too.

I knew he could heal me. Not just my physical pain, but perhaps my emotional pain too? I didn't want that. I wanted to know the pain that my family had, that I had caused. My flashbacks were becoming worse now that I knew and met my mate.

What was the Moon Goddess trying to show me? I knew she didn't hate us. She only disliked our former Alpha. I was trying to prove to her that being the female Alpha could change a lot. I didn't need a man. Well, except that hot teacher.

"But...Isla, West is our mate. He's our other half." Felicia said.

Usually whatever Felicia said irked me, but she was speaking the truth. "I know. It's just...not time yet. I feel it."

This time she scoffed. "Good luck avoiding him. We need to let him out. We'll hurt ourselves if you keep doing this." With that, she moved to the back of my mind and ignored me.

I sighed and looked up at the complete glass ceiling above me. Before we renovated the pack buildings, it was a dreary place. I asked for my Alpha house that was basically something that looked like a ghost house to be converted into a cabin. It suited me. Within my bedroom, I had a queen bed, my own small bathroom, and a couple of pieces of furniture scattered here and there.

It was a dark and cloudy night, just like my heart. It had nowhere to shine and show its beauty, because of the clouds blocking its way... What was I supposed to do now?

Saturday morning came by in a flash and I hadn't slept a wink after the nightmare. I swung my legs onto the porch railing and sipped my coffee. It was filled with cream with just a spoonful of sugar. 

I refused to go on a diet, I could not handle it the way other people could. Though I usually put in more sugar, I decided that I could go around the normal way and "diet" this way. This was definitely better.

"Feeling better now?" Jen came into view, her gorgeous hair tied into a long ponytail as she stood next to me, looking at the hill that was in front of us as the sun came up, the rays peeking over the top.

"Mal told you?" I sighed, putting the mug behind me, not wanting it anymore.

"Yeah. You know, if it keeps getting worse, Bella can prescribe those sleeping pills again."

"I don't want to fake sleep. I need to get through it."

Jennalyn huffed and turned to me, her arms crossed. "Stop doing this to yourself, Isla! You could seriously hurt yourself! I know you've been through pain. But, I also know you're keeping something from me, your Beta, and Mallory, your Delta. I understand you don't want to share things with us, but sooner or later, you have to tell us, for the sake of everyone."

"I don't need to share anything," I said, stubbornly. We were getting into a deeper subject that I didn't like.

"You hurt Mallory, physically! I could tell you used your full strength! What if this happens to another pack member that isn't of a status?!" She said, louder.

"Watch where you're going, Jen. You don't know what I've been through." I seethed.

"I would if you would just explain!"

"I won't! You're just wolves under me!" I showed my fangs as I used my commanding tone.

Jen stepped back a bit and lowered her head slightly, responding. She then turned away and tucked a curl behind her ear. "We've known each other all our lives. But I see we're only werewolves to work under you. I'll take my leave now, Alpha." She spat the last word out with disdain and walked away.

I blinked when I realized what I had done. Jen was one of my only couple friends. I had just insulted her to her face, telling her that she wasn't my friend at all. She was just my pack worker. I groaned and put my face in my hands. Everything was already starting to go bad.

Maybe it was time to go see my mate again.