the space station hums with the early morning traffic, the wafting of coffee and fresh croissants filling the air. for the first time, you are not behind your desk, hitting your shins on the weirdly placed piece of metal, but strapping yourself insi...
inspired by the song "nate" by NF, which is a letter to his old self
dear mini-me,
I want you to know that you'll spend so much time crying over people who aren't worth it
dry your tears, wash your face pick up the pieces, sow yourself back together let your sadness become vengeance and let that fuel all of your days
you'll grow up not having to worry about food, clothes, money, and more but some way your mind will always find a way to keep you awake with all these small worries
they'll call you smart when you start school intelligent, a model student, amazing but your mind will never agree with that
in 7th grade you'll take the act finish quick, get a 28, forget then until the letters start coming there's an online high school calling you to come and notre dame will keep sending letters, even until 9th grade
it's hard, I know, for the majority of the time you'll not know how to feel, middle school is hard and people are mean and you are tired but keep going, you've got this little one
middle school will be rough just so you know, love you'll make mistakes with friends, with yourself you'll fall apart with thoughts that you're a horrible person
stay strong, love stay strong you're not as bad as you seem to think
in the summer before 9th grade you'll meet some people, a boy and you won't realize now but everything will change, you'll realize that life wasn't as small as you thought it was
9th grade will be hard just as a warning, dear half of the time you'll be tired other half you'll be upset
you'll be worrying about applications to the high school of your deepest dreams even when everyone is telling you "you'll make it, just you wait and see!"
teachers and students will shove bundles of expectations down your throat "the model student! the one with good grades! one day she'll get a perfect sat! all colleges will want her! she's amazing! she's studious!" until you're lost between who you are and who they so desperately want you to be
I want you to know that for a very long time you'll feel an ache in your chest like you aren't exactly living fully but love, some day I promise it'll get better
but even I don't know when day that'll come
with all warmest feelings attached, the future version of you, my mini-me
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hello, hello! so sorry i haven't had time to write. i've been going though a bit of writing block and i've been busy. for good measure, here's all i can say about my disappearance from wattpad:
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