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"wow! HAHAHAHA ang saya nun!" Eunzein laughed out loud after we rode a bike around the park.

Sobrang saya ko na pumayag siyang sumama sakin ngayon. Masaya akong masaya siya. Actually kanina pa siya tumatawa mula pagdating hanggang napagdesisyunan naming magpahinga sa bench.

I wished the time would stop right at this moment. Gusto kong hanggang dito nalang, ganito na lang lagi. Gusto kong masaya siya habang kasama ako.

Kahit alam ko na ako lang ang may gusto.

I know I can make her laugh out loud anytime, but I can't make her love me back.

And I know behind those laugh sadness lies. Kasi sabi nga, those people who laughs the most, hurts the most.

Tumigil siya sa kakatawa at tumingin sakin. Napansin niya siguro na nakatitig lang ako sa kanya kanina pa.

"Suhe?" She snapped her fingers infront of my face.

Nabalik ako sa realidad at mahinang tumikhim para maibsan ang kahihiyan. Did I stared at her that deep?

"Sorry. By the way, you want something to drink?" tanong ko sabay tayo para bumili na sana.

But she tugged my shirt down.

"Dito ka muna...may sasabihin ako..." she said in low voice, facing the ground.

No...

"Ano? gusto mong maglibot ulit tayo? arat!" Argh! Sounds wretched.

Bahala na, basta ayoko munang marinig.

Ayoko munang matapos--

"Suhe...please listen."

I heaved a sigh, walang magawa kundi ang umupo ulit.

Baka oras na nga para tanggapin ko ang tadhana. Tadhanang hindi para sakin.

"I'm sorry Suhe..." First blood.

"After you sincerely cared for me, I've done so awful things to you..." Double kill.

"I can't return your feelings." Triple kill.

"Sorry for being not able to love you back...I'm so sorry. Sorry but thank you for all the things you've done for me. Thank you for the load, for playing ml with me, for making me laugh, for being my boybestfriend. I'm so thankful to know you." Multi kill.

"No matter how hard it is to lie to myself, I really couldn't help it. I couldn't evanesce the fact that...

...the fact that I'm obstinately in love with Jaeil." Legendary.

"I'm sorry...I'm so sorry Suhe.."

She's bowing many times as tears run down through her round cheeks.

That hurts me even more.

"You don't have to apologize Eunzein. Alam ko naman dati pa na gusto mo talaga si Jaeil, pero pinilit ko paring ligawan ka para maexpress ko kung ano ang nararamdaman ko para sayo at masaya ako dun dahil pinayagan mo. Kaya wag kang magsorry okay?" and I smiled.

Totoo, masaya na ako sa madaling panahon na naligawan ko siya. I'll always treasure that moment of us. I'm happy enough that I expressed and tried my very best to show how much I love her.

But like what everybody says, you cannot dictate someone's heart.

She smiled at me with a teary eyes and hugged me.

"Bakit ba ang bait mo?" She sobbed. Tumawa ako at niyakap siya pabalik.

"Talagang mabait ako, ikaw lang ang bet." Nakuha ko pang bumanat na ikinatawa niya naman.

We stayed like that for I dont know how many minutes. Hayst, ang bilis lang talaga ng oras kapag kasama mo mahal mo.

Iniuwi ko na siya sa bahay nila at umuwi narin ako. Agad akong bumagsak sa kama ko at tumitig sa ceiling.

Ang sakit.

At kailangan kong ipost to.