HARRY STYLES - IMAGINES

Beauty (and other) Secrets HS

Hiiii, *excited wave* 

this thingy is inspired by Vogues little series "beauty secrets" if you don't know it, I got you one of the videos up here (with Bruna Marquenzine a literal ANGEL I love her). Also....inspired by Golden, first track on Harry's AMAZING ALBUM. I LOVE IT. AND GOLDEN IS JUST SO PURE. so cute. so this is obviously...fluff? sort of? Idek what it is, but if you like, let me know. 

Also. if someone wants to cry and overexcite over Fine Line, I'm right here. hmu lmao

kissy, nica  

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I nervously placed the camera in front of the mirror, so that I could see myself in the screen but also use the mirror as help for getting everything right. Vogue had asked me to add my own little episode of their series "Beauty Secrets" to their collection and I had gladly said yes. Obviously I had as if I would miss out on something like that. I had decided on doing a simple morning routine, nothing too big or complicated, since I myself wasn't a makeup mogul and I didn't wanted to embarrass myself. As I set up all the little things, tubes and oils I owned, I heard how the covers in the bedroom shuffled slightly. I had closed the bathroom door for safety and I had also told Harry that I would be filming a video for Vogue but I still was insecure about people finding out about us. Sure, there had already been speculations and paparazzi shots of us two, but nothing indicated a full blown relationship – and Harry and I both were keen on keeping it like this. The whole point of keeping the relationship secret was basically just that we wanted to protect our little bubble of happiness as long as possible, before it burst because of hate comments of both fandoms. I was sure, if we would come out as a couple, and we didn't do it the right way, especially his fans would accuse me of only dating him for PR...which would make sense in their eyes since my newest movie had just premiered in theatres. But it obviously wasn't true, we had started dating about a month ago, where I was still doing press for the movie. Maybe a week into press tour, Harry had taken me on our first date, a cute café in the heart of New York City. First I had feared that we would get spotted immediately, but since New York always promised a certain anonymity and Harry was an unofficial master of tricking any kinds of paparazzi, we stayed unnoticed. On the second date then, one had caught us leaving a restaurant and since then, every news channel seemed to wait for us to make a move or a public announcement. That Harry visited the premiere in London obviously only fuelled the fire, but since he refused to not attend, who was I to say no to him.

Currently however, we were in back in New York, at his very own flat he owned and where I had decided to spend my free weekend over. His second studio album "Fine Line" just recently dropped, about three weeks ago maybe. I remember him being enormously nervous before stepping on stage that day, not that you would've noticed it during his performance. Since then, and a little to my dismay, his ex-girlfriend Camille Rowe and their relationship had been topic number one everywhere. And admittedly, hearing her voice on a track of the album and knowing that many, or almost all of them were about her, was hard. But it was way harder seeing everyone's opinion about it and everyone digging it up again. Harry didn't seemed to mind too much, or at least that's how it looked like. But obviously how couldn't it, because if it would, he wouldn't have put the tracks on the album. But back to what I was saying, I felt just slightly insecure about that. So as the time passed by, I more and more hoped that he would like to make us public. To finally show everyone, that I was making him happy and that he was over Camille – despite having her voice memo on one of his song and an album dedicated to her. But since I was too shy to ask, and also embarrassed because I was so petty and insecure and...jealous, I never asked. Originally, I had planned on asking him about it this weekend, because it had been almost a month now since we were seeing us. But as I said, I never made it to actually ask him just yet. After all, his answer could act as a real mood killer, and I wanted to enjoy my time with him as much as I could. And again...it was embarrassing, wasn't it?