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| october 13 8:59 AM |
the weeks gone by fairly fast. jack not being here made it seem like it's been slow since all of my friends have been busy but when i really come to think of it, it's gone by faster than you'd think. i've been stuck at home a lot with the occasional shoot every few days. nia had sophias doctors appointments and her work, sa has been out of town for three days with nate and my brother and latrelle have college and girls to deal with which leaves mom and adam but theyve been busy with their new home renovations they've been planning for the past few months. so despite having no company, i'm finally in spain and waiting on adelia and neels to pick me up from the air port like we had talked about.
being here brings back some of the best memories of my life. it reminds me of how nervous i actually was to be here where my dad and i had always wanted to go with each other. i had this certain rush of excitement and adventure circulating all through out my body. just being here brings back that same exact feeling and i'll always love it. it's almost like the feeling i get when i'm just laughing with and talking to jack. it makes me even more excited to be here. i can't imagine the feeling i'm going to get being here with him. it was something i wanted to experience with him so bad back when we were dating and now i finally get the chance to.
"cindy!" i hear the most welcoming and heart warming voice call out to me causing the biggest smile to form on my face. i look around, searching for adelia which didn't take long at all due to how frantically i was looking for her. when i spot her she's practically running at full speed to get to me. i gladly meet her half way and we embrace each other into the biggest hug that seems like it could last forever until we both pulled away. "i've missed you so much" she whines, hugging me again but breaking it faster than the first one. "you have no idea how much i've missed you" i smile back at her. being back here with her just makes me feel at home. of course i feel at home back in omaha with all of my friends, but here is a different type of home. it's one that will always have my entire heart. the people, the scenery, food and events... it's all so perfect i can't even begin to describe how much it means to me.
"where's neels?" i ask, my face falling when i realize he isn't here. i was so caught up in the moment and all of the excitement i didn't even realize he wasn't here. she lets out a small laugh and shakes her head. "he is passed out in the car, he didn't even make it thirty minutes into the trip" she sighs making me smile at how i should have known. "let's get your bags and get to the hotel though... i'm dying to meet jack, the man you absolutely were disgusted by and angry at not even two months ago" she teases causing me to roll my eyes at her in a playful manner as a large smile forms on my face. "i wouldn't say all that" i laugh nervously as i scratch the back of my head. she smiles back at me and we head to baggage claim and catch up wait for my bag to ride by
"so you really made the first move?" she eyes me, almost like she wasn't sure if she could believe me. that alone made me think of how much she reminds me of nia in times like this. nia would probably say the same exact thing... word for word. i spot my bag and grab it as i nod at her. "yes, i'm still kind of in shock if i'm being honest" i laugh at myself as i follow adelia when she begins to walk through the air port, guiding me out to where the car was. "why would you be in shock? i'm assuming you thought about it a lot with how much you over think... you deserve it." she smiles over at me. adelia has always been an uplifting friend. sometimes even more than nia which is hard to do since nia is always so positive. she always has been. it's just another reason for them to meet each other and become as good of friends as adelia and i are right now.
i sigh and think about what she said. she absolutely right on me over thinking it. not the me making the move part... i didn't think at all when i did that... when she said what she said it made me feel closer to the thought of how long i dealt with deciding if i actually liked him and eventually came to terms with how much i do like him... still. "it's just crazy to think that we like each other again after all of these years." i laugh a little at the thought. "well you know what they say... feelings that come back are feelings that never left." she smiles softly over at me. no... no i didn't know what they say. i've never heard that before... not a day in my entire life but to an extent i guess it does make sense. now it just makes what i said even crazier. we've continued to like each other for three years and i didn't even realize it. i've never really had a thought about him or me liking him when i lived here. everything was about my job and my friends that eventually turned into family. it makes me wonder if he knew he liked me... or if he ever thought about me in any way when we were apart. "i've never heard of that...it makes sense now though" i answer after a few seconds of me being quiet and coming to realization of what she had said.
the rest of the way to the car was filled with nothing but conversation on her job and how much she's missed me and how much i've missed her and being here. before we knew it we were already at the car. you could see neels passed out in the passenger seat. his head was leaning against the window and he looked completely out of it. adelia walks over and opens up his door causing him to fall over quickly and wake up with a jump. the seat belt eventually stops him so he didn't actually fall out of the car. the laughs coming from adelia and i were causing the people around us to stare, we didn't mind though. we were enjoying our time together with out a care in the world. he looks up at us, still half asleep and just gives us the finger before fully sitting up. he looks over at me and a wide smile forms on his face. "you know i didn't think i'd miss you nearly as much as i did" he smiles at me again, taking off his seat belt and standing up before walking over to me and embracing me in the tightest hug i've ever even gotten. one thing i know is that i missed him just as much as he missed me, maybe even more. i smile into the hug before we pull apart. being back here again with them gave me a feeling of euphoria. it was by far the best feeling.
when we pull apart neels continues to stare at me with a heartwarming smile he always smiles. "what?" i laugh. he just shrugs. "i guess i just really missed you" he tells me. "i've missed you a lot to" i smile, playfully punching his bicep. "okay well let's hurry and get us to the hotel... i'm excited to meet jack!" adelia chimes in before he could reply. his eyebrows furrow and he turns his head over to her. "jack?" he asks, sounding completely confused as to who it was. adelia sighs and looks over at me. "i've told you almost everyday the past week that we were going to meet her boyfriend tonight..." she sighs again while shaking her head. "boyfriend?" he laughs lightly as he looks over at me. "didn't you date a jack back in highschool?" he asks making me nod slowly, remembering telling them all the details about our break up. "it's the same one..." i say lowly. it reminded me of the reason we broke up. you could see his face fall when i said that. "but it doesn't matter really, he's still just as sweet, caring and loving... maybe even more. and i like him."
"a lot" i add with a smile. neels is probably mad at me for this. getting back with jack. he didn't like jack since i told them the reasons that led up to our break up. he's very protective over me so he probably isn't going to we dated... for a short amount of time and ever since then he's always looked out for me... even before we dated. he just wants what's best for me and i appreciate it but he doesn't know jack the way i do. i'm sure everyone who was ever in a bad or toxic relationship has said that but i'm not in either of those. i'm in a good one...i'm happy as ever and i don't think it could change. i'm just really content with everything right now. it's perfect.
