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| october 14 11:37 PM |
"my feet are killing me" i sigh over at neels as i sit across from him. we have been at jacks concert for over two hours, but i don't mind. i'm loving every moment about it. "probably because you won't take your eyes off of him. you've been standing there staring at him the whole time he's been out there" he tells me sounding kind of fed up but chuckles to lighten the tone. i furrow my eyebrows at him. "because he's completely enjoying himself and i love experiencing this with him. i don't want to miss a minute" i tell him calmly. "right" he nods causing me to furrow my eyebrows yet again. the whole time i've been down he's been acting completely off. he's not his usual self. he was always so funny and uplifting but he's been acting the complete opposite. "what's your deal with him? do you not like him or what?" i ask starting to become annoyed with neels and his mood lately. "look, i know i'm your friend and as your friend i'm supposed to be supportive... but this i just don't support. he's a complete dick and stares at you like you're just something to get at. just because you guys have history, doesn't mean it has to repeat its self." he chuckles, shaking his head as he leans back in his seat. "how is he a dick? hes literally letting you get into his concert for free. he payed for adelia and you. at least adelias being appreciative and a good friend by showing her support for both my boyfriend and one of my best friends." i shake my head, raising my voice slightly but not loud enough o draw adelias attention away from the boys performing. "and speaking of looking at someone like they're just something to get at... checking me out in front of my boyfriend? real fucking classy neels." i roll my eyes as i stand up and walk back towards adelia.
"you okay? i over heard" she sighs sympathetically while placing a hand on my shoulder. "just neels being a dick, but let's just forget about that and move on... i didn't come here to be in drama... i'm here for my friends and my boyfriend." i smile as i watch jack perform from back stage. all of his and jj's fans were absolutely crazy about them and i loved it. you could tell that both of them live for this. they present themselves with so much confidence when they're up on the stage doing what the love knowing everyone is here just for them. i'm not even performing and i understand what jack was saying about the rush he gets when he's up there in front of all of his fans. hearing them all sing the lyrics, clap along to the beat, cheer and scream their names... it has to be one of the best feelings. "look at you... now you look so happy " adelia smiles, causing me to look away from jack and towards her. "i am" i tell her truthfully. "look at him though, he's loving it. i'm glad i get to experience this with him." i add, pointing over to him as he sings the lyrics to their song day dreaming. he glances over at me with a wink while he sings the words before focusing back on the crowd who began to cheer louder when they saw him wink. i wonder if they knew it was for me...i'm pretty much out of sight, they most likely just figured it went with the theme of the song.
this concert experience beats the fundraiser one by a long shot. i had no idea why i even went, i was regretting it the entire time. i remember all the awkward eye contacts we had the whole concert since it was the first time seeing each other in three years. all i could think about the whole time was what he was thinking when we made all the eye contact. he probably was thinking about why i was even there or how pissed he was at me... he definitely showed it. the tables have completely turned this concert... this time all of the eye contacts are filled with lusts and our faces are holding wide smiles. we look completely happy and into it. i'm living for this feeling. it's amazing.
"i'm so happy for you... you know, getting the love of your life back" she winks making me cough some when she said that. "my what?" i ask, her words throwing me off guard some. i hadn't expected to hear anyone say that at all... or for a while at least. the whole L word hasn't popped up in any of jack and i's conversations the whole three weeks we've been doing this. the only thing remotely close to that word is like, and we use that a lot. "the love of your life" she says again a little louder, most likely thinking i didn't hear the whole sentence. "you know, you guys are back together after three yearsof not even being on speaking terms. there's no way you guys still don't feel the same.. i mean you found each other again and you're both loving every moment of it." she smiles as she explains it in more depth when i don't reply for a second. i look back over at jack and a smile forms on my face. i mean, she does have a point. we were in love when we broke up. we were each others first love, it's not something you'd just get over quickly but three years is a long time. is it really still love or just us beginning to like each other again; going through the same stages and phases we did back in high school. it made me realize how lucky we actually are. so many people would do anything to have the feeling jack and i are sharing... love or not at the moment, they'd do anything to go back and share something like this with someone they felt so strongly for.
i watch as jack finishes off the song and i couldn't help but smile again. "you know what? i.. i think have to do something.." i say with complete confidence while i throw together an idea. "i'll be right back." i smile again, walking away from adelia and right on stage towards jack. at first he didn't notice until he heard the crowd cheering even louder than before as i began to get closer. "what are you doing?" he asks confused as to why i was on stage. "is everything oka-" "just kiss me" i interrupt him, placing my hands on both sides of his face and bringing his face down to mine as he places his hands on my waist with no hesitation, pulling me closer to him. our lips meet and everyone begins to scream out for us which made us both smile into the kiss as he slightly makes it more in depth.
when we pull apart we both smile, ignoring everyone else while we look at eachother. "okay, i'll let you go back to it. you're doing amazing!" i smile, jumping up some to kiss his cheek. he laughs and blows a kiss at me while i run back to adelia who was cheering for us just as loud as everyone else... maybe even louder. "how did that feel!?" she squeals.
"fucking amazing"
hi guys!
i really don't know how much longer this book is going to be:( i have no more ideas for it and i'm getting MAJOR writers block. i'll have a good 10 or more chapters at least:)
HOWEVER i have a good idea for my next book;) it's going to be a nate fanfic since i lowkey shipped cindy and nate while writing this! let me know what you think about it or if you think it should be someone other than nate! you're opinions matter:)❤️
