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| september 31 7:09 PM |
"johnson told me this place was really good." jack tells me as she slides into the booth. "nia, sam and nate were talking about it the other day. now we finally get to try it" i smile some as i look around the inside of the small italian restaurant that had just recently opened up. "so how did the meeting go?" i ask jack since we haven't seen each other in two days. we had barely talked which i didn't really worry about being that we were both insanely busy with work and he had to go visit family. it gave me some time to sit back and relax and be completely worry and stress free for the first time in a while. i'm completely content with the way everything in my life is going at the moment.
he takes a deep breath and slowly releases it. "it went really good actually. it took forever to go through all the paper work and through the plan. but i also need to talk to you about something." he tells me causing me to frown some. i'm a little worried he maybe called me here to cancel what's going on between us now that he said he needs to talk to me about something. "it's not completely bad." he says quickly which makes me feel a little less tense but i still hold my frown, waiting for him to carry on with what he was saying. "so in about a week and a half, me and johnson are going down to spain for about a month for a small tour... i probably should have told you sooner but there was never really a good time for it. i'm sorry" he explains. it did make me a little sad to know he's leaving, but it's not like i can be mad at him. it's his job and something he loves. i could never be mad at him for something like that... i'm just glad he told me instead of leaving me oblivious. "spain? you'll love it. there were tons of fans all around for you and jack. it made me proud of you guys." i smile at him. he smiles back warmly and stopped looking as tensed up and nervous as he did when he was telling me what was happening as he leans back against the booth. "so you're not mad or anything?" he asks causing me to laugh some. "jack, there's nothing to be mad about. you love your job and you want to do it. i'm even supporting it. you'll love everything about it, i promise." i tell him, reaching out to place my hand on his that was sitting on the table.
he doesn't say anything for a second he just looks down at our hands. at first i thought he didn't like it but a small smile quickly formed on his face. you could barely notice, it was almost like he was trying so hard to hide it. "okay, it's just that last time i did this everything went so bad for us." he sighs. i shake my head and look away for a second. "that was last time, three years ago. don't worry about any of that and what happened between us. let's just focus on whats happening between us now and what's to come." i tell him as he nods. "damn" he shakes his head. "this is all so crazy almost" he laughs some. "what?" i ask with a small laugh as well. he stays quiet for a second like he was trying to think of what to say before speaking up. "this. you know.. us working things out." he chuckles. his laugh was full of joy and eagerness. it made me smile as i heard it and saw the dimples forming on his cheeks along with a slight pink color.
"you're blushing?" i tease making him smile. "a little" he admits with a small nod before looking away. "so tell me about your music. you never really talk about it."
"it's a big accomplishment for you and i want to hear all about it." i add leaning forward some. right as he was about to speak up the waiter comes by and asks for our order. when we order it becomes quiet again for a few seconds. "it's kind of weird i guess. i didn't really expect all of it to come this far. we're actually about to leave the country to go on tour. it's all so surreal."he explains making me smile some. you could tell he was taken back some by how far they've come with their music. "which song of yours is your favorite?" i ask and he sighs with a small laugh. "i have two... no one compares to you and lotta love" he tells me with out making eye contact. he shifts in his seat and i furrow my eyebrows before realizing what the songs were.
i remember them singing those songs at the fundraiser they had back in august. i remember how much jack kept looking at me in the vip section when he sang the two songs.he sang them with so much emotion and now i'm starting to realize that maybe the songs were about me and our relationship. after all he did say 'well we do have you to thank for over half of our songs.' maybe those songs contributed to what he had said that night. it makes me feel even more bad about how and why things ended between us because i know he truly cared about me and i was stupid enough to end it because we both were going down different paths in life. i couldn't be more thankful that life had brought us back together for the second chance that i definitely don't deserve after how it all happened ...after how much he cared about me and i practically just threw it away.
"can i say something?" i speak up awkwardly. his expression seemed like he knew what it was all about. he gives me a nod and i let out a sigh. "look, i'm really sorry for how everything ended between us and how badly i ended it... i'm just glad we're here right now." i tell him. "it's okay. i mean like it wasn't back then because it hurt like a bitch but i agree with you on how you're glad that we're here right now, i am too." he smiles at me. "like you said, let's just focus on the now and what's to come"
hi guys!
kind of a short chapter but this is all i could write during my break today lol hope u enjoyed it!
