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| thursday september 24 5:37 PM |
"she's getting so big!" i whine as i hold nia in my arms. nia stares at her sadly and gives me a nod. "i know, i hate it so much." she sighs as she stirs the food in the pot that was sitting on the stove for dinner. she demanded all of us get together at her house tonight for dinner at seven. the guys are all out doing who knows what while me and nia stay behind and care for sophia and cook dinner for everyone. nate, however, did say he'd bring some dessert so there's something we're able to look forward to getting from them. "i have baby fever now, thanks." i laugh as i continue to admire sophia. she coughs then says "jack" before coughing again. my eyes slightly widen for a second before turning my head towards her. "jack?" i ask questionably.
"oh come on. you two would have the cutest baby, cin!" she throws her head back with a soft stomp of the foot. "we don't even like each other like that anymore." i laugh at her she starts to walk towards sophia and i in the living room. if be lying if i denied us getting closer has slightly changed things between us. it reminds me of the old times and those were the times i deeply cherish and love so much. everything was so right but then again everything does happen for a reason. "then why are you two getting so close again?" she raises her eyebrows at me. "we agreed on being friends." i tell her. she sighs again and looks at me. it was an i know you're lying look...but in reality i'm not lying, that's what happened. "you're lying! something has had to of happened between you two already." she deadpans at me, taking a seat on the coach and pulling her knees up to her chest as she stares at me. "nothing has even happened!" i laugh at her. "not even a kiss?" she presses. it reminded me of the first day on our vacation when he , i'm assuming, almost kissed me. at least that's what he made it out to be... well until regina walked in.
"not even a kiss." i clarify the situation making her roll her eyes with a sigh. "you guys are so boring. so you're telling me you guys don't even like each other in the slightest of ways?" she begs me for details earning a laugh from me at her desperation. "i can't lie, things have changed from the first time i saw him after the break up... feelings wise. at first i thought we hated each other but now that we're getting closer it's making me feel almost like i'm missing him...i.. never mind. i don't know how to describe it. just forget i even said anything." i laugh at the way i was at a loss for words when it came to describing how i feel about it. explaining my feelings is hard.. especially when you don't completely understand everything that's going on.
"oh my God." she gapes at me. "i knew it!" she smiles to her self. "i know exactly what feeling you're talking about. you miss being with him cindy." she smiles warmly at me. "but do i really though? or is it just some temporary thing i'm feeling since it's been so long and we're getting close again?" i press, throwing my head back as i confuse myself. she laughs some at my words and shakes her head. "you're completely over thinking it. he was the first guy you've ever loved. i mean it could be a temporary feeling...but personally i think you just miss him. you guys were so good together and loved one another so much, it only makes sense for you to feel like you miss him... especially now that you guys are hanging out more, it's bringing up old memories and feelings." she explains causing me to nod as i take in every word she said. there's no doubt us being around each other again has cause some old feelings to resurface... but it's just a difficult situation. he seems as if he's completely moved on from me... i mean regina is part of the reason, but then again some of the things he said feels like he's subtly hinting it to me.
"if i were in your position, i'd just take it slow and see how things go. you don't want to say something and then find out it was just an in the moment feeling. you know?" she tells me. three years again, who would have thought this would be a conversation that would happen... it's certainly taken me by surprise. before i could reply the door swings open and laughter erupts from every one of the guys mouths as they walk into the house. i look away from nia and over towards the guys causing my eyes to land on jack. a smile forms on my face as we make eye contact before i quickly break it and look down at sophia to act as if i wasn't even looking at him. he knows i was, the eye contact gave it away.
"dinner is almost done guys" nia smiles at all of them. "i got chocolate ice cream and vanilla for cindy" he laughs showing us the gallon of ice cream plus the small pint of vanilla ice cream for me since i've never really been fond of chocolate flavored ice creams. "i tried to talk him into that mint chocolate chip one you always get but he refused." jack laughs causing nate to sigh. "there was no way in hell i was going to put my pride aside and buy that flavor." nate shakes his head, i laugh knowing how serious he was being. he's always hated me getting mint chocolate chip when he was there. he always acted like i was a complete embarrassment when i did. "oh i know, you've told me plenty of times." i laugh as i see jack walking towards me from the corner of my eye. he takes a seat right by me and moves his head next to mine to look at sophia. when i turn my head to face him he looks over at me at the same time causing our lips to be right by each others. i was frozen at the moment, i couldn't even speak up to make it seem like it was a normal position to be in for the two of us. "do you want to have someone take a picture of us three...?" he asks, looking all over my face just like he used to do. him doing that made what felt like butterflies form in my stomach from how nervous it makes me. "if that's what you want to do... then i'm down." i smile causing him to as well. we make brief eye before he breaks it and looks away with an awkward cough as if he had just realized what was happening and how close we were. just a small nudge and our lips would have met for the first time in three years.
"will you take our picture?" i ask johnson as jack gets his phone out. he smiles and takes the phone from jack and waits for us to get situated. "how are we going to sit?" i laugh, confused as to how he wants to pose for this picture. he sighs some and scoots over more towards me before wrapping one arm around me, placing the hand on my waist. my heart skips a few beats before i pull my self together. i turn sophia around so she's facing johnson while jack takes a hold of one of her hands. "you guys ready?" johnson asks. i do a quick debate with my self on wether or not i should place my head on his shoulder for the picture. i nod as i place if on his shoulder and johnson smiles. "say cheesseeee" he drags out.
jack and i both say cheese through our smiles and laugh when he's done taking a few. he removes his hand from sophias hand but not his hand from my waist as he grabs the phone from johnson. "these are actually cute!" i smile, trying not to stutter from how he's still holding onto my waist. "do you care if i post them.. on like instagram or something?" he asks me causing me to laugh some. "aren't you only supposed to post stuff that goes with your music or something?" i laugh as i question him. he shakes his head and laughs. "no!" he smiles over at me. my eyes advert from his and down to his lips as he smiles at me. his small dimples were showing which made me smile even more from how much i've always liked them. "then i don't care" i smile at him.
"will you send them to me though?" i ask as he pulls his hand off of my waist to type out a caption. 'her favorite aunt and uncle' i shake my head with a small smile at his caption and like it before commenting two red hearts under it. people were already commenting about them thinking we're dating, how the picture is adorable, how we'd be cute together or even how much they already don't like me when he posted it barely a minute ago.
"am i your favorite uncle?" jack asks in a baby voice towards sophia. "breathe if it's yes" he tells her making me laugh at him. "how cute, uncle and niece bonding time." i smile over at him while he looks over at me with a wink. "looks like i'm the favorite uncle guys" he announces.
