¿There really isn't... a reason?

¿5?

The worst part about this whole thing is feeling as if you are a burden to everyone.

Like you are holding everyone back from reaching their full potential.

Robin forbids that I go on any missions. I tried my hardest to convince him that I could. That I was able to fight for the city but, every time I tried it was a losing battle.

Adding on to this list of how my life just can't seem to get better, I'm tired.

I'm really...

Really...

Tired.

Physically? Mentally? Emotionally?

Yes.

I'm tired of every time I close my eyes I see his face, I feel him on me, I think of him when my eyes are open.

I'm tired of every time one of the others even graze me I fill with a fear I can't explain.

I'm tired that I can't get through my head that my teammates aren't going to hurt me. They aren't going to hurt me like he did or hurt me in anyway at all.

I'm tired that every time I look in the mirror I see black bags under my eyes that I can't get rid of because I've tried to sleep but I can't because my nightmares hold me hostage.

I'm tired of the wars I have to fight in my head that nobody knows about.

I'm tired of all the tears I've cried alone and I can't control them, I can't do anything because I'm. Too. Tired.

It's funny. Kind of.

These thoughts lead me to the roof of the tower with me barely realizing it.

I looked around. Taking it in.

Realizing where I was.

Feeling the breeze on my face, my clothes, and my hair.

I felt the tears on my face, but I wiped them off.

I took a sharp breath as I walked towards the edge.

I looked down realizing it would only take one jump.

One jump.

One jump and it's all over.

One jump and I wouldn't have to see his face.

I heard the door to the roof open.

I turned around, realizing there were tears spilling out of my eyes.

It was Starfire.

"Raven!" She yelled causing me to wince.

I said nothing and turned around.

As soon as I was about to jump, she yanked my arm back.

I fell backwards hitting my head on the ground.

I opened my eyes, though everything was blurry.

"Friend Raven are you okay?" She asked quietly. She tried to pull me up but I yanked away.

"Don't touch me again." I snapped.

"But I-" I cut her off.

"Don't. Touch. Me. Again." I snarled, staring into her eyes making sure she knew I wasn't joking.

My head shot up to the door of the roof opening again.

It was Robin, along with Beastboy and Cyborg.

Well, this just got better.
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