¿There really isn't... a reason?

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I regretted almost every step that I took to meet Robin.

I wondered what he was going to say.

When I walked in he was sitting there, his hands folded with each other.

His felt held strong sadness.

"You can sit." He told me.

I sighed and took my seat.

He didn't say anything, and it felt more awkward as a seconds passed.

I played with my fingers until he eventually started talking.

"I wanted to say I'm sorry." He said softly, causing me to look up from my hands.

I gave him a confused look.

I was going to talk, but he kept going.

"I haven't treated you like I should. You need support, you need to be treated like a team member but, more importantly, you need to be treated like a friend. My friend. But, I failed to do that. I failed you and I am sorry Raven." He said, looking at me in a complicated way.

"It's okay." I whispered, looking away and my knee slightly bounced up and down.

I didn't know where else to take the conversation.

I didn't know where he was going to take the conversation.

My head started to pound even more.

"It's not. I didn't give you the support you needed when you came back. I didn't even really say I missed you when you came back. But I did. I missed you more than you will ever know. I just... I felt angry at myself because I didn't protect you. I'm still angry at myself for not protecting you. That was my job as a leader, and I failed you." He said in a heart wrenching way.

I felt my heart slowly break as I heard his apology.

"You didn't fail me Robin. Things happen for a reason. I was taken for a reason. I had to fight him for a reason." That's all I could spit out.

I really didn't know what to say.

He sighed and changed the subject.

"So all he did was beat you right? I noticed when you came back, your lips and eye were swollen."

Wow...

He really doesn't have a clue does he?

Beastboy was right.

He really did push that idea completely away.

I sighed, realizing I'm going to have to explain this again when I really don't want to.

"No." I breathed out.

He looked at me in a confused state.

"He did other things." I ran my fingers through my hair.

I knew it was time.

He deserved to know.

"Like what? Do you need medical attention?" He asked.

I wanted to laugh at how clueless he was.

Okay...

Okay.

Rip it off like a bandaid.

"He raped me... Robin." I breathed out.

I didn't feel any anxiety, or even sadness when I told him.

I just felt... numb.

He looked at me in complete shock.

"Raven I am so sorry." He said.

I saw a tear fall down his face.

"Please don't feel sorry. Or even sad. I already have someone doing that all the time. I'm fine." I said, rubbing my temples, desperate to get the pounding to stop.

At least I wasn't feeling like I was going to throw up.

That's a plus to this mudslide of a situation.

"Who else knows?" He asked, still in shock.

"Beastboy." I told him.

His facial expressed showed he was curious.

"When I was working on the computers one night, he came in to talk to me. He asked about it, and I told him. He's the only person that knows besides you now."

I didn't want to go into detail how I made a fool out of myself and I cried for what seemed like hours while he hugged me.

He said nothing. He just sat there in shock, sadness, and anger.

"Well... I'm going to go. I don't feel good. You can tell the others if you want..." I said awkwardly.

I got up, pushed the chair in, and looked back at him.

He played with his hands in distress.

I walked out, and took a huge sigh.

You did it... Raven.

You ripped it off like a band aid.