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I changed into my uniform, which was very normal.

I tried to make it seem like I didn't hear her talking to Beastboy.

I walked up to her door and knocked.

I was thinking she might have been in Robin's room, but she answered.

"Friend Raven!" She saw it was me and gave me a bone crushing hug.

"Hey Starfire." I managed to choke out.

She let go somewhat quickly.

"My apologies I-" she began to say, but God I was tired of people apologizing to me.

"It's fine. I was wondering if I could... talk to you?" I was trying really hard to be... normal.

"Yes. Are you the alright?" She asked.

"Yes I'm fine. I just really haven't talked to you lately. Can I come in?"

"Yes of course!" She said with a huge smile.

Note to self: never take anyone's smile for granted. While I was gone, I wished I could have seen her smiling face.

I walked in, and it was about 10 shades too pink for me.

"You can sit on my bed with me if you wish." She sat on her bed.

I took the invite and sat in front of her, crossing my legs as in I was meditating.

"It is so well to see you. I have missed you so." She smiled at me.

"I missed you. That's why I came to talk to you." I told her.

I glanced over and saw a pair of Robin's  pants by her bed.

She noticed I was looking, and slightly giggled.

"We partake in the sex quite often." She just blurted out.

I choked on my spit, and my cheeks turned red.

"I said something wrong?" She was confused.

"Star, thats something you usually don't tell people." I tried to explain.

"Oh, my apologies. On my planet it is not as private as it is on earth." she said.

"It's fine." I laughed slightly.

"I have been wanting to talk to you for a long time. You struggle with the feelings of sadness correct?"

Dang how did she know?

Is it really that obvious?

"Uh... sometimes. But doesn't everyone from time to time?" I told her.

"Correct. Everyone does, but I know you have struggled with such feelings for a long time friend Raven."

Did Beastboy tell her?

Did Beastboy tell everyone?

"Did Beastboy tell you?" I couldn't tell if I asked in a defensive way or not.

"No he didn't. I can just tell when my friends are unhappy. Have you told friend Beastboy about your feelings?"

"Yes I have. He's actually helped me in ways I can't imagine." I said, smiling thinking about him.

"He is a wonderful friend. He has helped me a lot too." She told me.

"Can I ask how?" I really hope I'm not pushing her into something she doesn't want to talk about.

"One time, I was thinking about the events that took place before I came to earth. Sometimes it saddens my heart to think about, and I cry. I try to be strong but sometimes that is all I can think to do. I came out of my room and sat on the couch, and he noticed my feelings of sadness. He questioned me about how I was feeling, and then I started to cry again. He hugged me until I stopped crying, and he promised he wouldn't tell anyone about that event." She said ending with a happy tone.

He's true to his word, he didn't tell me about that.

"Yeah, he is such a good person." I felt my cheeks turn red.

She giggled and held my hands.

"Are you two the dating?" She asked joyfully.

"I mean... we kissed." I saw her face light up like a Christmas tree.

"Glorious! Did you partake in the sex?"

"No! God no." I shook my head, feeling more embarrassed as that thought went through my head.

"Well I am happy you two are happy. Friend Beastboy is perfect for you. Like boyfriend Robin in perfect for me." She smiled and hugged me.

I hugged her back.

She pulled away, but looked at me kind of sadly.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

"I have been meaning to tell you about something. Something that I hope will help with your feelings." She said, grabbing my hands again.

"Okay..." I didn't know what to expect.

"I have only told boyfriend Robin about it, but, I thought it would help if I shared it with you too. But, I do not wish to go into much detail. When I talk about it, it saddens my heart." She squeezed my hands.

"You don't have to tell me if you don't want to Starfire. If it causes you to hurt, then you don't have to." I tried to assure her.

"I wish to. Will you listen?"

I sighed, and nodded.

I was curious on what she was going to tell me.

"Like I said, I do not wish to go into much of the detail, but, in my home world I went through heartaches. Very big heartaches." She spoke and I didn't break eye contact with her, and she still held my hands tightly.

"I was raped, which is what earth people call it."

No...

Not her.

Not Starfire.

I looked at her in shock, because I was.

Why Starfire?

"That is all I wish to say about it. But I just wanted you to know you can approach me with problems. And I wanted you to know how loved you are by me." She told me, still having a smile on her face.

I would have never known she went through the same thing I did.

"I love you too Starfire." I was the one to squeeze her hand.

"You can tell friend Beastboy if you wish, we should be open as the friends." She told me.

"Okay..." I went to get up, but, before I did I gave her a tight hug.

I still can't believe it.

She's like Beastboy.

A master at hiding past events

I let go and walked out swiftly, heading to Beastboy's room.

I sighed, before walking in.