¿There really isn't... a reason?

¿9?

Beastboy made me switch him chairs so he could do the work on the computers for me.

I tried to tell him I could finish it, but he insisted.

His eyes were glued to the computer, typing countless codes.

He had gotten me a bottled water and a few crackers. We haven't really spoke since I broke the embrace.

I looked at the clock, and it read 1:34AM,

Wow, it's really late, and I was exhausted but he was finishing my work for me.

And I honestly couldn't be more grateful.

"Beastboy..." I said very quietly.

"Hm?" He said, his eyes still stuck on the computer.

"Are you gonna tell anyone?" I asked. He thought for a moment.

"No." He shook his head.

I sighed in relief. I didn't want this story to spread around.

"Did you want me to?" He asked, still not looking at me.

"No."

"I won't. Promise." He said. I could tell he meant it, which I was grateful for.

I ate another cracker, trying to gather my thoughts.

They were so out of sorts I couldn't even get them back together.

I swallowed my cracker and then took a sip of water.

I still couldn't get the events that took place out of my head.

I can still feel him.

I thought telling someone helped.

Beastboy did help, but I guess things like that take longer to heal.

I longed for another embrace like the one I was in 20 minutes or so ago.

"Beastboy?" He finally took his eyes off of the computer. He was waiting for me to say something.

"Can... Can you hug me again?" I asked, very nervously. My eyes started to water again. He smiled a sad smile.

"Of course I can." He said softly and sweetly. He moved closer to me, and like he did before, he hugged me very tightly.

I hugged him back immediately this time.

A few tears fell down my face again, and they landed on his uniform.

I don't want to cry again, but, in a way I felt a relief.

I never felt a relief while I was crying alone, but, with him here, hugging me like he was, I felt I relief I can't describe.

"You-" I sniffled, trying to hold back tears. "You give really good hugs." I said quietly.

He laughed ever so softly and gave me a tight squeeze.

"Oh yeah?" He asked.

I nodded, resting the side of my face on his shoulder.

He took his hand and placed it on my head again.

"Well, anytime you want one. I'm here."

I smiled at his remark.

"I uh... I'm sorry." He said in a sad tone.

"For what?" I didn't know if he was apologizing for the events that happened with Slade. He had nothing to do with it.

"For everything." He said sadly.

I felt myself start to cry again.

"I'm sorry. For... for crying on you." I said, a tear running down my cheek. He gave me another tight squeeze.

"You never have to apologize for crying. Not to me. Not to anyone. Everyone has to cry now and then, and you definitely needed to." He whispered.

"Thank you." I sniffled and hugged him tighter.

He started slowly rubbing my back as a small gesture of comfort. And I appreciated it.

I wished I could express to him how much he had helped me in only the past hour.

But, I can't put it into words.