¿There really isn't... a reason?

¿8?

It has been about 5 months since the argument with Robin. I had tried to communicate with Robin to see if there was any thing I could do to help with the missions.

Of course, they failed. He wouldn't let me go on a mission and it annoyed me to no end.

He did tell me, though, and I was grateful, that I could do some work on the computers. Like with the cameras around the city and report to him any suspicious activity.

It wasn't what I intended, but it's better than nothing.

I don't feel completely hopeless now.

The computers consisted of two concepts you had to master.

Part one: Hacking into things.

Part two: Stalking people, because that's not weird right?

I mean we are super hero's. We have to stalk people. It's how we save other people. By stalking them and making sure they are okay... but not in a creepy way.

All this thought is giving me a headache.

I heard a knock on the door.

"Friend Raven." I heard Starfire say.

"Hm?" I said. Never taking my eyes off the screen.

"May I enter?" She asked politely.

"I don't care." I tried not to sound harsh but I'm afraid it came off that way.

She came up and sat in the rolling chair next to me but made sure to keep her distance.

"I wish to apologize. For the events that happened. I did not mean to fill you with the feelings of sadness in any way. I just saw you standing up there. I couldn't let you go through with your actions." She said holding eye contact with me.

That actually really touched me. I didn't let it show, though.

"It's uh... it's okay. I'm not mad. Don't worry about it." I tried my best to do a smile.

"I am glad you are not bitter. It did sadden my heart to know I caused you such pain." She said with great sadness.

"Star." I said sternly, causing her to make a serious eye contact.

"You didn't cause me pain. I put it upon myself to act the way I did. I shouldn't have snapped at you. It's like, when you think something in your head, but it just doesn't come out the way you want it to. I didn't mean to push you off, I was just angry. Not angry at you. Angry at some of life's circumstances. I promise, you didn't cause me pain. And what Robin said, in the med wing, I needed to hear that. I needed to hear how stupid I look and act." I said.

I hope I didn't trip over my words, or say something wrong.

She didn't cause me pain, I nailed that part of my little rant slash speech.

Robins right, I am acting completely insane about the whole touching thing. But I can't find the solution to it.

Okay... okay. I think I might have got it right.

"That brings joy to my ears." She said with a smile.

I'm glad. I like it when I make others happy Star, because I don't get that pleasure a lot. You don't understand how much better you've made me feel.

"Well, I will leave you alone to continue your tasks." She smiled and walked out. Shutting the door behind her.

I took a long sigh, and continued with my work.

I don't know why, but all of the sudden, a wave of tiredness hit me like a bat to my head. I rested my head on my hands.

I could feel my eyes starting to close, but when I realized what was happening I shot up, trying to stay awake to finish my tasks.