¿There really isn't... a reason?

¿19?

I opened my heavy eye lids, which I don't know why they were heavy. All I did was sleep yesterday.

And I bled on Beastboy's bed...

I knew he didn't care though, which made the embarrassment go down.

I rubbed my eyes, trying to get my clear vision.

When my vision cleared, I saw Beastboy's back was facing me.

His back was muscular, and it added to his attractive physical appearance.

I could tell he was awake, I could sense it.

I scooted towards him.

I wrapped my arms around his torso from behind.

I kissed the skin on his bare back and cuddled up to him.

I wanted to show him the love he never had gotten shown before.

I heard him laugh softly and he placed his hands over top of mine.

"Morning." I grabbed his hands.

He flipped around to where he was facing me.

"Morning." He replied.

I smiled, looking at his face.

I took my hand and traced his jawline.

I leaned in and kissed him shortly, our lips fitting together like the Yin and yang symbol.

I decided that wasn't enough.

I wanted to share the fire I had with him.

I leaned in and kiss him again, but this time it was more passionate.

Way more passionate...

He slightly crawled on top of me

I pulled away, not really knowing what I was doing.

"Is this okay?" He asked.

I felt safe doing something like this with him.

Like I said before, I didn't want sex.

At all.

If we were to try that, I would freak out.

But, he was different.

Slade kissed me in a harmful manner, leaving my lips with bruises.

When Slade kissed my neck he bit my skin, causing blood to leak from my body.

When he held me down, it would leave marks and bruises that lingered, reminding me he was in charge.

When he deflowered me, he pushed in me with force, not caring if I was in pain or not. He only did it so his scumbag self would get pleasure.

When he was done, he didn't even care or think that he would cause me trust issues.

He didn't care that he would cause me trauma.

He didn't care that I would probably have about 4 panic attacks during sex... well, 4 panic attacks with anything.

He just didn't care.

But, Beastboy...

He's a different story.

He never forced me to do anything.

His kisses on my lips were soft, loving, and not painful.

His hugs... God his hugs were heartfelt.

We've only been 'Dating' for a day.

Well, we kissed.

He lets me sleep in his bed.