¿There really isn't... a reason?

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"Beastboy!" I heard someone pound on the door with force causing me to shoot up.

"What!?" Beastboy yelled back, seemingly annoyed.

"It's your turn to clean the bathroom!" I heard the voice yell. I recognized it was Cyborg.

"I'll give you 20 if you do it for me!"

"No! It's your turn!"

Beastboy sighed.

"Cy, please. I promise I'll do it next time." Beastboy tried to make his voice sound more emotional.

"I hate you man. I'll do it, but I'm not doing it again." Cyborg huffed as he walked away.

"Sorry." He whispered as I curled back up to his chest.

"It's okay." I yawned as his fingers played with my hair once more.

"He gets on my nerves." He mumbled.

"I bet he does." I felt my eyes slip closed.

"Well, I guess he's better than Robin. He's a lot quieter at night." He giggled. I punched his chest again.

He never mentioned that kind of thing around me.

Sex I mean.

He made jokes about it but, he never asks me about it.

It's like it doesn't cross his mind.

"You never talk about that." I whispered.

"I never talk about what?" He questioned.

"Sex."

He got quiet. He was trying to figure out what to say.

"I mean... what is there to talk about?" He questioned awkwardly.

"I don't know. You just never mention it. You don't try to make me to that. I mean don't get me wrong, if I tried to do that my panic attack would have a panic attack. It's just... you never ask me anything about it." I rambled.

"I don't ask about it because I know it would freak you out. You're not ready for that, and neither am I." He answered.

"Yeah, I'm not and I'm sorry." I said, feeling like I was holding him back.

"Rae, don't apologize. I said I'm not ready for it either. Don't feel rushed. I'm going to wait as long as you need me to." He kissed my forehead.

His words made me sink deeper into his warm hold.

How...

How did I get so lucky?
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RANT ALERT:

I wanted to update, even though it's like superrrr short because I probably won't update for a few days. Today just major sucked.

So I lost 2 people to suicide. My friend Christian which was almost 2 years ago, and my cousin Rocky was just a little over a year ago. When you lose someone, some days just hit harder than others, and today has been just crazy.

And then my best friend Faith, she started this new medicine and it's changed her completely. In a bad way. And I knew she was having a hard time so I was messaging her on Instagram, then she blamed me for all this stuff and I was like whaaaa. And now she's not answering me😂 it's like, I try to be a good friend and everything to everyone but I'm not capable of doing that. I feel like an awful friend ya know?

Anyway, enough ranting. If you need to rant, you can message me and I'll answer. Love you all.