Our Summer : My Truth

{79} Fail

This is based off of the prompt, What would you do if you could never fail?

If I could never fail I would go back in time. I would build a time machine that takes me to Friday January 3rd at 6 p.m. . And I know you might say " well a successful travel through time has never happened" and I'll tell you that this time is different. This time I cannot fail. I would go back and persuade my past self to begin studying my declamation for Spanish then and now. How does one persuade a lazy student and talented procrastinator to study you might ask. Well if I persisted in asking I could never fail. I would get through to her. My words would matter. After practicing, I would preform a flawless declamation. Oh what would life be if we could never fail?

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Failing this exam really challenged my perceptions about myself. Last year, I had declamation in Spanish and failed. I was really devastated. Then this year came around and I thought magically I would do better. Yet I did nothing to prepare for it. I didn't study early. I didn't practice over and over again. I put forth no effort. And then I did my exam this year and felt the same way again. Failing twice opened my eyes. When I fail exams I believe it's impossible to fail again. I put forth no effort to ensure that I won't see the same result and simply expect the graces of God to be with me. But that is not how life works. Sometimes we wonder how things go wrong for us and what could possibly be wrong with the universe. Sometimes we even question whether we are a good person and if we are being punished for our bad deeds. Sometimes the answer is us. Sometimes we're not putting in effort yet we are expecting a different result. Start the new year off right. If you want something, go get it. Love yourself and know when to take rest.

~ Have you ever failed an exam?

Did you study for it? Do you think you deserved a better grade?

Love you a bunches

D.O.

jan 19 2020