Broken Walls *AU*// L.T.

55. The Interview

How is everyone?

Camilla P.O.V.

I wrap a jacket around my shoulders before checking the time once more.

8:56 p.m.

Louis said to meet him at nine on the roof or his house. Considering the tension that will be there, I would rather not take my chances going to his house. We can keep our distance for now, especially considering how angry he will be when I tell him the news.

One foot steps onto the window sill when his light flicks on, and the blinds open. He hasn't noticed me yet when he strips off his T-shirt and replaces it with a jumper. By the time he is about to change into pajama pants, my heart is beating rapidly as I sit on the roof, cold air engulfing me. The jacket is hugged tighter against my body and he finally sees me, a smile overtaking his features. I wish that smile could stay there forever.

However that never really happens in reality.

He slides the window open and steps outside, a Van clad foot joining the other, and shuts his window. He doesn't know what to say as it seems so he just utters a barely audible,

"Hi." Lou sits and shoves his hands in his pockets. His roof and mine are practically on top of each other, only about a sliver away, so his feet are spread out, touching mine.

"Hello." I say.

"Listen I-" We both say at the same time and burst into laughter.

"You first." I tell him and he knits his fingers together.

"Okay so I'm really sorry I made you stay at that party last night and got you completely wasted. It was just by the time you had your fourth drink, you were already making out and grinding on this girl in the corner of the room -"

"Wait what?" My eyes widen and I touch my mouth in disgust.

"-And I had to do something so I let you stay over in hopes that you would just stay safe for the night. You were completely knackered and I was just trying to help. But by the looks of how you acted this morning I would think you had something extremely important to attend to. I'm sorry if I made you miss that, okay? And what was it anyway?" He finishes, looking up at me through his eyelashes, twiddling with his thumbs.

"Okay, that's actually what I wanted to talk to you about. And thank you for the apology, and for telling me that very gross information," I spoke, "And please promise me you won't be angry when I tell you what about to tell you."

"I really can't promise that." He bites his lips and scoots a bit closer.

"Okay... I'm sorta kind of moving away. I have an interview tomorrow morning for a prep private boarding school and I most likely will start my education there. It's in London and I will be living on campus." By the time I have finished, my eyes are closed waiting for a reaction. Hearing only silence, I open them to see him with a face of confusion and hurt.

"Wait - But I.. When did this happen, I- "He looks like he is about to break into sobs and he's hyperventilating. This wasn't the reaction that I thought.

"It happened after the whole Harry thing. There is just too much that this school is doing to me and most of it is you. I'm sorry Lou, I know we've made promises but-" My eyes are trailed on the roof tiles and he suddenly grabbed my wrists in his warm hands.

"It's not fair Cam. You keep breaking my heart and it's not fair. " His voice is choked and his blue eyes are staring at me with so much pain, and it's all too much.

"I know, but I need to leave. I need to make a new life for myself before I go off to university, and part of that is making my life in my control. That's extremely hard to do with you around." My voice is hard and firm, I will stand my ground with him this time.

"Cam, I know I've given you rough times but we've been through so much. I can change okay, I can make everything okay and-" He is speaking frantically, pulling me closer and his face is red.

"No, it will never be okay Lou. And I don't want you to change. I need to change for myself. Doing this will help my anxiety and the boy drama and-" I try explaining but his hands cover my cheeks before I can finish. I stop talking as he forces me to look into his eyes. By now my legs are bent against my chest and I'm pressed against his chest.

"Please don't go. I need you." He whispers, his voice cracking, and there are tears welling in my eyes, as I place my hands over his.

"I'm sorry Lou. It's time for me to do something for myself for once." I'm staring deeply into his eyes and I can't tell if he is angry, sad, or hurt, Probably all three.

"What about us?"

"What about us? Lou, it seems like we are nothing but friends with benefits and I don't want to be labeled... not anymore. I'm sorry Lou, but there's nothing for me to stay here for anymore." I say and I'm suddenly pushed back, as he stands up.

"So I'm nothing to you? I'm always the one to stay back Cam. I love you so much, I fucking love you so much I would probably take a bullet for you. And you don't feel the same way. You will never love me ever as much as I love you! And you know what , that fucking hurts! And I am done being hurt! You have something to stay here for, and that's me." He is yelling now and I'm breathing heavily, speechless.

"I'm sorry-"

"No you're not, you know what sucks about loving someone that you know will never love you back?" He asked, his eyes glossy, fists clenched at his sides.

"What?" I gulp loudly.

"You love them anyway because you think you'll always have a chance." He's crying now, his face red and his breath coming out in puffs. "Goodbye, Cam. Good luck at your new school."

Before I can blink, he's climbed back into his room, and the lights are out.

It literally feels like hours that I'm sitting there, waiting for him to come back.

But he never does.

-

"I see here your GPA is a 4.0? That's very impressive indeed Ms. Montgomery, very impressive." Ms. Cloven looks at my transcript with admiration and I smile as her eyes scan down the paper. "I see under work you have Starbucks?"

"Uhm yes I worked there in Junior year and I also volunteered at a children's health clinic my sophomore year." I smile at the woman, smoothing out my plaid blazer. It's hard to remain calm when all that's on my mind is leaving everything behind.

"Well academically everything seems to be in order and your extra curriculars are also impressive. No behavior problems, a clean slate. Well I guess that's it. Welcome to Westminster Prepatory Academy!" She spoke cheerfully and I say up straight shaking her hand. It wasn't a surprise that I got in and my mother will jump for joy when I tell her in the waiting room.

"Thank you so much Ms. Cloven. When should I move onto campus?" I ask and she hands me a set of papers.

"Everything that you must know is in this packet. Thank you for coming, you are an amazing applicant and we will be lucky to have you." She smiles and I shake her hand once more before leaving her office. I spot my mum sitting in the corner and I tap her on the shoulder, her eyes trailing from the magazine to me. She immediately stands up.

"So, how'd it go?" She smiles, laying a hand on my shoulder.

"I got in!" I practically yell and she scoops me into her arms, hugging me tightly.

"Oh honey that's wonderful! How about we go celebrate, we can get some Chipotle hm?" She leads me out of the offices and into the chilly day air, as I force a smile on my face.

Forced.

Why am I not happy?

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This story will most likely end in 10 chapters. There will be a sequel, I'm not sure when the story will be ending, but it will be. This was not edited. x