Don't Transmigrate Me!

Still Age 28

WuAi didn't move, until the police officers came to visit her. They showed her the CCTV of the accident. A truck had slammed into his car, and then it flipped his car so that the metal parts of the car scraped along the ground. He was hit head on.

As WuAi watched, she saw that he was absentminded while driving. I was the reason why, she thought. I was the reason why he wasn't paying attention to driving! Then it was as if it was slow motion as she saw the truck crash into his car at the intersection. NO! She grabbed the phone that had the CCTV showing on it. No... she sobbed. She held the phone to her chest as if it would stop the accident from happening.

The police officers saw her cry silently. She seemed to be trying to hold something in.

The nurse led the police officers out and finally after the door closed shut, WuAi wailed and wailed and wailed. From outside where the police officers and the nurse were talking, they could hear her gasping for breath while screaming her heart out. They couldn't bear to turn around and look. It broke their heart, and they didn't know how to comfort her.

Finally, WuAi had strained her vocal cords and started coughing while tears still streamed down her face. She laid back on her bed, blankly staring at the ceiling.

This again, went on for another week.

After a week, the funeral director came in. Yi didn't have any immediate family as he was an orphan. So all the papers to sign and the decisions to be made went to her. Apparently, he was placed in an ice chamber and the funeral director wanted to know if she wanted him cremated or buried.

At the end, WuAi chose to cremate him. She asked the nurse to help her buy a blue and white tie. WuAi then continued to put on this new tie around him.

At this point in time, the same police officer came by, "This was found in his car," and he handed her a little box. She could already feel tears collecting in her eyes. She thought that she had already ran out of tears. She closed her eyes, before opening the box. She let her fingers look for the object inside of the box and the tears once again quietly glided down her face and dripped onto the white floor.

It was a ring. It was a heart-shaped blue diamond surrounded by little white and black diamonds. She pressed her eyes close together. It was perfect, yet not perfect at the same time.

She bowed over his body, and looked at his face, face on. She slipped off the black ring she always had around her neck and slipped it onto his ring finger. She looked from his ears, to his lips, to his nose and finally to his eyes, "I do," she whispered, and placed the blue ring on her ring finger. Then she leaned over to kiss his cold lips. I do... and I love you... But he was long gone, and it was because of her.

She turned around and the nurse rushed over to hug her. The nurse nodded her head to the funeral director and he wheeled Yi into the cremation room. All they could see was from a little window high enough so that no one saw the body burn, but could see the fire burning bright. WuAi couldn't watch it and leaned heavily on the nurse.

She decided that she would go to the beach to scatter his ashes. He loved that place, and he loved the water, and loved the sunrise. Whenever he heard of a new beach, he would send it to her and say, "Let's go there next!" They had even almost gone to all the beaches in their country. They were going to go to the last one that year. They had planned for it because it was past a mountain and they wanted to camp on the beach.

WuAi decided that she would go to that beach. Once she scattered his ashes, he could forever go see any beach he had wanted to see. After the body was cremated, she gingerly held onto the jar. The funeral director said something about a ring, but she paid him no heed. She was given her belongings. She thanked the nurse, and paid her generously. Then she paid her hospital bills and paid them generously.

She went out into the sunshine, but she looked like a ghost who couldn't find her home.

Because she had lost it.

She found her car. Put in the navigation, and left. The nurse who cared for her, watched as the car drove out of the parking lot. She couldn't help but to worry. She had secretly slipped in a psychiatrist's number into WuAi's bag before she left. Then as worry continued to pervade her thoughts, she called the police and asked them to follow her so that nothing would happen.

The nurse was correct to be worried, because as WuAi drove towards the mountains in the direction of the beach. Tears were flowing from her eyes once again. Every now and then she was close to getting into an accident, but just narrowly avoided it. The more she saw the blue water from the mountain roads, the more tears she had. Until finally, she couldn't see a curve because the tears made everything blurry and she drove off the cliff.