Firemen Jeon and Paramedic Kim | vk✓

Eleven - Rejection

"Bedroom..." Taehyung gasped, crashing their lips together and wrapping his legs around Jeongguk's waist when he lifted him.

He sat on the edge of the bed and stared at the carpet, regretting his actions for the past few hours. The sex was great and he enjoyed it, but Jeongguk felt Taehyung's disconnection.

Actually, tasting and feeling Taehyung blew away any dreams he had in previous weeks, the willingness to try anything leaving him in awe. Taehyung's responsiveness fueled the fire in him, but Jeongguk knew it was his despair being unleashed.

Jeongguk started to stand when a hand grabbed his arm. Looking down, he saw dark blue eyes regard him. Though he had spent hours gazing into the beautiful, shimmering orbs, Jeongguk knew he would never get enough of them.

"Don't go.." Taehyung whispered.

"Why?" Jeongguk asked. "You got what you wanted."

"Please." he implored, "Please give me a night of decent sleep. Chase the nightmares away.."

"What happens when you have another bad night, Tae?" Jeongguk inquired, "What am I supposed to do then?"

"There won't be a next time." Taehyung replied coldly. "Just please, only for.. tonight?"

He sighed and waged an intense inner battle. He wanted to help Taehyung but hated being his stepping stone. Nothing would change and it tore him, knowing he would regret it, he nodded. "Okay, Tae. Just for tonight."

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Taehyung lied.

He insisted their encounter would last only one night, but Jeongguk found himself at Taehyung's apartment often. Sometimes it was when Taehyung had horrible days, other times when his demons haunted him.

Jeongguk wanted to end their toxic relationship, but he was the only one Taehyung had! Sometimes after Taehyung had his fill, he would turn his back on Jeongguk and order him to leave. It hurt him deeply, but he didn't mind and he respected Taehyung's demand.

He spent many an evening with Taehyung which at times shattered his heart as he himself confused with their status. But tonight was different... Taehyung pleaded with him to stay because he couldn't handle it anymore, he was overly anxious and shook like a leaf.

It was nearing the anniversary of the car explosion that changed his life and he started having flashbacks again. - Also, Taehyung's psychiatrist had refused to prescribe him Ativan any longer as he was relying on the drug too much. Taehyung felt lost that he stared off into space, agony and fear on his face.

"It'll be okay, Tae." Jeongguk said quietly as he slowly held Taehyung trembling figure, making the man sitting on his laps.

"It will n- never be okay!" Taehyung argued but he never push Jeongguk away, instead he closed his eyes and rest his head on Jeongguk's chest. "The ghost is going to stay with me f- forever."

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The piercing scream ripped him from sleep. His eyes flew open and he looked toward the sound, seeing Taehyung upright. His hands were gripping his hair tightly and he shook as he shrieked. Sitting up quickly, Jeongguk took Taehyung in his arms and held him close.

"I'm here, Tae." He said quietly, rocking him gently.

"Why? What did I do wrong?" He whined as the night terror remained.

"Nothing. You did nothing wrong." Jeongguk said as he brushing back Taehyung's hair soothingly, "It was beyond your control."

Taehyung pushed on Jeongguk's shoulders and searched his eyes, seeing concern and sympathy in them. His heart began to pound fast, the emotion he hadn't felt in years! Impulse overcame him and he rose to his knees, capturing the firemen's lips in a crushing kiss.

Suddenly, Taehyung abruptly breaking the kiss and stared at Jeongguk. He was reminded of a promise he made himself to never kiss Jeongguk when they weren't having sex as it conveyed deeper emotion. - He watched as Jeongguk's gaze dropped to his lips and he leaned forward for another kiss.

"No!" Taehyung stated, pushing Jeongguk away, "I.. I made a huge mistake. It'll never happen again."

"Why? Why is it such a bad thing?" Jeongguk asked him, "I care for you, Taehyung. I genuinely care for you so much."

"You need to leave."

"Tae.. Why won't you give me a chance? I want to help you, please?.." He begged.

But Taehyung frustrated growing, "Get out!" he shouted, "I don't want you here, I don't even like you okay!"

Jeongguk flinched and gaped at him, wondering how Taehyung could show vulnerability for a split second before his wall returned stronger than ever. It hurts that Taehyung kept pushing him away though he kept trying to connect with him.

He wanted to keep up his attempts of breaking through Taehyung's mask, but he was unraveling from the poisonous words consistently hurled at him.

"Alright." He said, voice full of hurt, "I'll do it your way. You know where to find me if you need anything. I'll check in with you later."

"Don't bother anymore." Taehyung said as he stormed his way to the bathroom, not looking back at all.

Jeongguk nodded once and walked through the apartment, exiting moments later. Leaning against the wall, trying to fought the sadness that was overwhelming him.

His heart broke each time Taehyung crumbled under the despair plaguing him, but the rejection was too much to take!

After he gathered himself, he left the apartment... wondering if he'd ever be back.