Wendy Oneshot

My Heart Was Blue

The stage director’s countdown rings through your earpiece. The next song is ready to go, and the unnies had already patted your forehead dry. The blazer they first put on you got ripped midway through your wearing it, so another assistant is running through the dark looking for the spare.

You take a deep breath and close your eyes. This is it. This is it. Don’t crumble now.

“Put this on,” the assistant quickly whispers then slips the blazer over your shoulders. The room backstage is too warm— too hot— and your sweat is dripping from your chin and wetting your ruffled collar. No time to fix that now, you’re up in fifteen seconds.

You take a step, and then another. The assistants have left your side; it’s only you, the crowd, and the space in between. The lift is stable beneath your feet, the microphone feels like it belongs in your hand. You were made for this. Show them.

Show her.

No— it’s not just about her. This is about you, your members, all of your fans. 

Your endless nights of practice, throat going sore. Your constant state of movement, staying in sync with the other three girls. Your Promises— the fans who have gotten you this far and tasted your moments of victory and cried with you in your moments of defeat— they deserve this concert. This is for you, for them, for—

In a way it seems like everything is about her; look pretty for her, smile big, shine bright like you don’t want her to look at any other gleaming gem in the night sky. 

You take a deep breath as the lift rises and the screams get wilder. It’s almost as if you can hear one louder than the rest. From the block of seats near the middle, one of the best in the house. 

You would know. 

You handed them to her personally.

-💙-

RVB Entertainment Hints at New Girl Group in 2020

[+193, -28] LOL is your company under scrutiny?? then just go distract the gp with a new girlgroup 
[+132, -17] whaaaaat.. TT just give your other groups a comeback.. it’s not that hard!!! 
[+97, -12] RVB trying to escape tax crimes by shelling out more money, that’s insane 
[+76, -44] RVB!!! what the heck!!!!!!!!! what about your older groups!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Your group’s debut is a bust. A flop. A complete failure.

There are not enough words in any language that will be able to encapsulate just how devastating your debut song performed. Twenty seven copies in the first three days. Twenty seven copies in the first three days. That’s a little under 7 albums per member. That’s all of you and your members’ immediate family buying two copies each. Maybe they did. Maybe they were the only ones who cared enough to.

You want to cry, but haven’t you cried enough? What’s done is done, you can’t do anything about that. Your first fansign and fanmeet scheduled next week are barely worth it with twenty seven physical sales. Digital sales are increasing because your music video caught the eye of some international fans, but without much content they don’t have anything. 

Your company hasn’t planned that far ahead— this girl group was supposed to come in and then fade away until the trainee boys are ready to debut after the negative media attention. RVB is using you as the scapegoat. Depressing— but completely unsurprising.