all blood, no tears

995 days *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

995 days ago you left this earth.

you quit breathing and I continued.

you no longer smile

or laugh

or cry

or sing along to the radio

or listen to the sounds of the world

or watch the sunset in a million colours

995 days ago

you stopped living.

yet I continued

and now there's all this light

all of the light that was meant for you

and you're gone forever

and now every time I get to

hang out with friends

or walk around a park at midnight

or play games

or simply talk through life for hours at a time

I think of you

I see you in everything

I think of how you'll never experience anything past age sixteen

I think of how your heart stopped only weeks before it could hit seventeen

I think of how unfairly life treated you

and when I remember that you're dead

sometimes I wish that

I was you