all blood, no tears

you are more *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

It is so easy to starve yourself

in the same way she starved you of love.

It is so easy to withhold nourishment from your body

in the way she withheld nourishment from your soul.

It is so goddamn easy

because that feeling of emptiness, of nothing inside

is all you have ever known

and so to feel full is terrifying and unfamiliar

and apparently you are undeserving of that sensation

how else do you explain the fact that the person who brought you into the world,

who was your world

is the same person who brought everything crashing down around you?

how else do you explain that if not by belittling your own worth?

but darling, what i wish you would realize is that none of this is your fault

but rather hers, because of her own inability to peer beyond her own demons and see the angel that you are.

this is not your war and your body is not a battlefield. self-starvation is not your salvation, for it only continues the cycle she set in motion.

the only one who can save you now is you and the only way out is to eat,

to fight back against the urges, to feed yourself and fight this sickness.

stop punishing your beautiful self for the cruelties she committed.

darling, you are so much more than the perfect puppet she wanted you to be.

somewhere beneath the insults and all the lies she laid upon you is you.

there is an innocent young being waiting to be released.

set yourself free once and for all.

stop waiting for her to give a love she is incapable of ever giving

and learn to love yourself instead.