all blood, no tears

how could you leave me? *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

you find yourself losing friends

more

and more

it's harder to get along with people

you want help but you don't want people to leave

you worry that people think you're an attention seeker

so you smile and pretend to be happy.

but you break down when you get home,

when nobody's watching.

you worry that your friends think you are paranoid

despite the fact that it's true.

you could do with someone to remind you

that you're good enough and tell you it will be alright.

but no one is here.

you feel alone.

you've been feeling an overwhelming sense of nostalgia.

you desperately want to go back in time.

you'd change some things.

you wish you never met that one person

and you want another to come back

who you know never will.

you get home under the covers

and cry

you wish you were dead

and you feel guilty for this wish

you want to change so much about yourself

you might as well become a whole other person.

you find yourself laughing and smiling less.

you constantly feel miserable.

you don't want to feel like this,

to keep going on like this,

you can't

it's too repetitive.

so you take the the knife

and slit your throat.

you're dead,

you're gone

and there's no going back.

you left.

you left me

how could you leave me?

you don't have to live in pain anymore

but i do