all blood, no tears

I'm trying really hard not to get hurt again *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

I admit I was afraid to love

but not just love

to love you

you were a stunning mystery

you carried things deep inside

that no one had yet to understand

and I

well, I was afraid to fail like the others

you were the ocean

and I was just someone who loved the waves

but was completely terrified to swim

and I'm so scared that I'll stay here

being in love with you

waiting for you

and then in the end

you'll just leave

you are not mine and sometimes

I pretend that you wish you were

I create this idea that you secretly want me

and I often forget it's just something I've made up

because in reality

you do not want me

and you are not mine

but the saddest and most awful truth you will ever come to find is

that the someone who

started that fire in you

the one that cannot die

they are not always with whom we spend our lives