all blood, no tears

I'll be fine somehow *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

I know we haven't seen each other

or even talked to each other in a while.

but I've been doing a lot of thinking lately

and I want you to know that I miss you.

I don't regret what happened

and I don't want to see you again.

just I miss you, that's all it is.

it's so strange to think

that someone I knew so well

is now a total stranger to me.

that sometimes I go entire days

without thinking about you, not even a little bit.

most of the time I let myself forget because easier.

then I find something;

a photo,

a gift

or the stupid birthday cards we used to give each other

and the full weight of whats been lost

crashes down on me

part of me wants to see you again,

to hold you again.

but all of those feelings become empty thoughts,

when I look back now,

i remember love isn't always what it seems.

it's just so easy to forget.

but this isn't regret,

we had our reasons for ending it

and they were as valid as ever.

but back at the start,

we didn't need any reasons to fall in love,

we just did.

the reasons came at the end

and everything since then has been about reasons,

and that's okay.

because it means that one day

I'll find someone who I won't have to say goodbye to

but a part of me just misses loving someone

and having them love you back,

that's all.

i guess what Im saying is,

I hope things are good with you,

I hope everything is great,

I hope you have found a love

that is all the things ours couldn't be.

but just a small part of me

hopes that you still remember

what it was like before all the reasons.

some part of me hopes that

you still think of me

and that you miss me too