all blood, no tears

never have I dealt with anything more difficult than my own soul *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

life has just gotten to the point of

falling asleep crying

and waking up crying

I always have this pain in my chest that runs through my entire body

and I try to fill the void

by hanging out with friends

or going out and doing things

but even when I do that

I find myself just staring at the wall and not having a good time

I'm just really hurting inside right now

and sometimes

when you just hear

the same thing

over

and over

and over

it really starts to get to you

and it sucks!

i feel like I'm supposed to make people feel like their okay

and make people happy

but in reality

I can't even make myself happy

i feel like i'm too far gone

I'm sorry for giving up right now

but i don't really know

what else to do.