So Many Things I Want To Say

Chapter 4

"Molly? Hardin didn't say he had a girlfriend, you know me?" She looks at me and smiled.

"Hardin and I have been off and on for the past year, and you are all he talks about" She glares at me, I know she isn't happy about that.

"When you mean off and on? You and Hardin...?" She smiles

"Yes, we had sex if that's what you are referring too." That’s not what I asked,This is the girl he was with? Why? She laughs. How can she laugh when Hardin is like this? I don't even want to think about them doing that. Hardin said he loved me. He wanted to with me. Did he? Did he love me? Does he love Molly?

"We had sex a lot this past year but all he would talk about was you." I tried not to smile. But all of this while Hardin on his death bed is not fair, Death bed? Did I just say that?

"Why are you even here Molly? You don't even seem to love him." I glare at her. "This isn't good for Hardin." she turns from looking at Hardin.

"I don't love him, but we are friends and I know he would want me here." I thought she said she was his girlfriend. I roll my eyes, I don't like her all ready. She is wearing a white crop top that is practically see threw, her hair is dark brown with bright hot pink tips, like she just freshly dyed it. She has a lip piercing on the left side of her mouth. How could Hardin like her?

Her jaw is sharp she glares at me with her striking hazel eyes. "He knows he loves me and I will make sure I'm here when he wakes up." She sits by his side I want to walk over to her stupid face and rip her hair out.

"If you don't love him leave!" I thought I said that in my head. Shit. She stand to her feet and walks over to me her face filled with rage. She flips her hair to the side. Damn she has fire.

"You can't tell me what to do!" She grips my hair and looks down at me real close. "Hardin loves me and is meant to be with me!" She makes no sense, if she doesn't love him why does she care? Why does she think he loves her? The nurse that brought me in earlier and walks into the room.

"Tessa, I came to check up on... Tessa!" She jumps to my rescue. "Get out of here! I told you not to come in here!" what? "Tessa go to Hardin." She pushes Molly off of me, I move myself to Hardin. The nurse pulls Molly out of the room. I hear them in the hallway.

"What the hell was that Steph!?" Molly yells (They know each other?) "You know that Hardin and I are a thing! Let me be here!"

"He doesn't need you here! Leave Tessa alone she is all he needs! Go back to Yale!" Steph yells, she's from Yale too? "Molly! GO!" I hear Molly's heals click down the hall. Steph came back into the room. "Are you alright Tessa?" She asks me as she walks over to me.

"I'm fine, Steph." I look up at her beautiful smile makes me feel a little better. "You go to Yale?"

"Yes, it makes sense that I tell you the truth." I look at her confused. The truth? "I am a volunteer nurse. I'm at Yale for nursing, Hardin and I met when I was hooking up with his roommate early last year. His name is Tristan, I met him at a party." I chuckle, she is so com- forting. "Hardin and I became really close, Molly is one of my friends she met Hardin through me..." she looks at Hardin. “Molly, doesn't love Hardin we all know that he will never love her, she just wants a play thing that no one else can have, and you have nothing to worry about."

"So you knew me from the beginning?" She looks at me, God she is beautiful.

"Yes, Hardin talked about you all the time, literally every second, every chance he got you were always on his mind." I couldn't help but smile at her words. "Did you and Hardin ever?" My face becomes relaxed and blushed at her words.

"No... He tried to last year when he came home but I turned him down, I got mad at him…" she looked at me.

"Why?" She half smiles with a chuckle under her breath. "Why, did you get mad, and he is hot." I try not to laugh.

"I know he is but we have been friends for our whole lives. I feel like if we did anything or got together it would affect our friendship, and I found out that he was with someone else and I was mad that decide to do that, but in reality I should not blame him." I feel my eyes start to burn with the tears running down my face.

"He was coming home to see me for Christmas... I was going to tell him I loved him." My hands shake again. Steph stayed quiet and held my hand. "I've always said I loved him but this time it would have been different." she pulls me in for a hug. I feel like I made a new friend.

"Tomorrow you and me, we are going out to dinner." The first time today I'm happy. I give her another hug. "Get some sleep Tessa, you had a long night." The time seemed to stand still I did not realize that time move as fast as it did.